Now What?!?

Ok. Is this my official diary now? hahaha... I remember having one way back when I was in high school. After 3 years (I think) upon reading my daily journal, guess what?!? yup! LUOD!!! hahahaha.... so I ended up burning that notebook... I regret burning it na nuon... hahahaha.....

It was a fun day... (lol. just like a diary)... nothing special.... hahahaha.... ok. The friend I like less because that friend is friends with someone, i don't know how to explain it, let's just leave it at that. Anyway, we bumped into each other kanina, that friend talked to someone of course. And me, myself, and I... well... I ignored everything,, pretended to ignore everything. Someone don't have any clue that we're friends (maybe), and well,, I don't know if it's just me or what... basta! hahaha... samok! hirap i.explain.... Someone asked the super obvious question,, and of course he was answered an obvious answer --- "dili obvious??" ---- hahahaha.... bottom line... SO?? wala lang... hahaha....

it's just that after hearing several hours ago the acoustic version of the song which reminds me of someone and somebody..... I saw someone,,, and the turn of events?? well.... as of the moment,, it goes with my plans pa naman.... hahahahaha

Follow up::: I think after 19yrs of practice and expertise..... someone has seen through my lies..... nobody has seen through that act before.... or was I just really beginning to be a terrible liar?? and are my actions does not coincide with my words anymore?? I need some practice!!! hahahaha

I feel like SH*T

Ok. This was supposed to be a tweet (tweeter), but I guess pwede napud dani since no one cares to read my stupid ramblings. You know why I feel like sh*t? hah! of course not. why should you bother anyway.

but just in case you're still reading this, and is really eager to know why I feel like (you know what). First, this is my second time this year to have a sore throat, accompanied by cough and cold. 2nd, I didn't pass any of my preliminary exams... well some, yes, but for my standards, I don't think so. God! what's wrong with me?!?! It feels like this isn't me anymore. Then, I don't know what went into my mind that I've decided to go home during my 4 hours break -- probably influenced by my colds and sore throat--.

I'm not feeling well that's why I feel like (what's the word, that's the word!). oohh!!! Who am I kidding!!!! All these ramblings just boils down to one particular reason why.... I don't understand myself because there's still this tiny hope that -that was for me. Nah! scratch that out! I think WISH is a suitable word that fits perfectly. There's still that WISH that it was meant for -you know.. the 2 letter word that begins with M and ends with E- Although, I know it's just a mere wish, that's all there is and that's all it's gonna be. I did not fit even just a single description, hah! my wish right?! Actually, I am the opposite of all those things that were mentioned, the total opposite - so I should erase that hope, but the problem is... I can't!!! not now... but probably someday!!!

the key is ACCEPTANCE!!! hahahahaha.... -- I'd Lie -Taylor Swift ;P -- but you're still one of my frenemy!!! wait!!! acquainemy (declared by me :P)!!! wait!!! SILENT ACQUAINEMEY!!! Perfect!!! hahahaha!!! ok!!! I should start browsing for my market updates if I don't want to be late for class

Hater na Kung Hater

You've always been my number 1 kontra-bida!! Ever since I've met you nadagdagan nah ang kaguluhan ko sa world. I couldn't figure you out!! Everybody's telling me the same story, but you've shown me a different version (and still continues on showing me that), although there were a FEW (very few) times where you coincide with their story but that lasted for less than a second. I weighed the two, and there's really a big difference... action speaks louder than words ika nga. Anyway, why should I care naman diba? It's because, wala pai bagag dagway na tao na nangaway sa ako ug ing.ana.... hahahaha.... If what they say is true about me and karma being one, then it would be entertaining to see or know how have you been.... but seeing things the way they are, how unfortunate it is to know that they were awfully wrong. you think I already forgot all those things, hell no! remember, a wise man forgives but never forgets.

You think you're cooler than me... you should listen to THIS... or THIS... although the latter about the 80's shade is not applicable to you,,, it can be sa other kuwan... hahahaha.... I never fell for your tricks, so stop treating me like this you probably won't you think you're cooler than me.... you got designer choo choos whatever, and you wear them around, like they ain't shit.... see I got you all figured out, you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen. you're so vain, you probably think that this post is about you. don't you? don't you? lol, but its true. hahahaha...