Seriously? Do I really pique people's interest? What am I? Some newly discovered science specimen! For Pete's sake (whoever Pete is,.. , I feel sorry for him,, unless he's enjoying the exposure),, I am not some mutant nor some clown for your entertainment! Can't I be just me? Normal... I am normal? Am I? Oh! C'mon people! What's wrong with your eyes?!? I wasn't born to amuse you!! Not to mention, above everything else, that it's FREE!!!! I'm already contented being like an air,, invisible yet very essential. What? You can't help but notice my sort-of ordinariness with a bit of an extra injected to it?
I get it! You probably haven't met yet someone like me.. but of course! There's only ONE ME in this entire universe! Only ONE RHEAN... the amazing, the legendary, the awe-inspiring MOI . I only come once in every century, or dynasty as they used to say. Consider yourself blessed enough to have met ME.
Yep. I get that sometimes.... quite often actually... Fine!! A lot!!! Don't worry, you'll get used to it. Stick around a bit longer and you'll see. Consider yourself SURPRISED!
PS: ma.anad ra ka! hahahaha.... I'm such a good company xp libre talent fee sa pagka.clown! asdfghjkl >.<
Monday, November 26, 2012
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Christmas Wishlist
33 more days and it's CHRISTMAS... No wonder people are so hyped up that they already have their own Christmas wishlist... If you ask me "what do you want for Christmas?' I can't give you an answer in 5 seconds. Really... What do I want?
This time last year I had my eyes on a general PLANNER,,, of course I don't need that one anymore. I don't have a hectic sched anymore, there's nothing to look forward now; no special events that I should be aware of and must prepare for, no must do's and must go's... boy! Do I still have a life? Surprisingly yes! Matter of fact I do! It's a typical-worker-who-kind-of-doesn't-like-her-job life. Although some say that I should be grateful and that I am fortunate enough to have this job. But then again, I keep hearing side comments.. so I don't know which side to believe in. I'd say 50-50! But I guess those cynical people are just being polite and they're just saying stuff to ameliorate this feeling. Fortunately, it's still working..
HAHAHA.... I've realized that I'm writing about my wishlist one moment and then found myself whining stuffs about my job! gawsh! Why does it seems like everything I do relates to my job? Is it the root cause of my bitterness? hahaha... maybe! LOL... I'm just hoping this pays (not monetarily) well in the future....
Back to my wishlist.... I can't really wish for anything but have a job I love,, which of course, as we all know, is impossible this time.... maybe in 2 years time.
little things I want.... hmmm... go figure xp
If you really know me,, you should also know the things I want... but don't worry,,, I appreciate small things as long as it's from the <3 ....="...." and="and" aside="aside" br="br" cheeziness="cheeziness" counts="counts" it="it" matters.="matters." naks="naks" really="really" s="s" that="that" the="the" thought="thought">
NOTE:: Something that will really remind me of you (the giver)... naks!3>
It's a plus if it's a living object xp... Nonetheless, I'm easy to please... ahhww,,, on second thought, it depends on the sincerity of the act and how it was delivered... choz!
GOODLUCK!!! XD
Hope to receive something this year..... naks! hahahaha.... from the
This time last year I had my eyes on a general PLANNER,,, of course I don't need that one anymore. I don't have a hectic sched anymore, there's nothing to look forward now; no special events that I should be aware of and must prepare for, no must do's and must go's... boy! Do I still have a life? Surprisingly yes! Matter of fact I do! It's a typical-worker-who-kind-of-doesn't-like-her-job life. Although some say that I should be grateful and that I am fortunate enough to have this job. But then again, I keep hearing side comments.. so I don't know which side to believe in. I'd say 50-50! But I guess those cynical people are just being polite and they're just saying stuff to ameliorate this feeling. Fortunately, it's still working..
HAHAHA.... I've realized that I'm writing about my wishlist one moment and then found myself whining stuffs about my job! gawsh! Why does it seems like everything I do relates to my job? Is it the root cause of my bitterness? hahaha... maybe! LOL... I'm just hoping this pays (not monetarily) well in the future....
Back to my wishlist.... I can't really wish for anything but have a job I love,, which of course, as we all know, is impossible this time.... maybe in 2 years time.
little things I want.... hmmm... go figure xp
If you really know me,, you should also know the things I want... but don't worry,,, I appreciate small things as long as it's from the <3 ....="...." and="and" aside="aside" br="br" cheeziness="cheeziness" counts="counts" it="it" matters.="matters." naks="naks" really="really" s="s" that="that" the="the" thought="thought">
NOTE:: Something that will really remind me of you (the giver)... naks!3>
It's a plus if it's a living object xp... Nonetheless, I'm easy to please... ahhww,,, on second thought, it depends on the sincerity of the act and how it was delivered... choz!
GOODLUCK!!! XD
Hope to receive something this year..... naks! hahahaha.... from the
Monday, November 19, 2012
STUCK
stack? stock? HAHAHAHA..... I can't help but share this, I must say, a hell of an experience which had me wondering (wandering?) HAHAHAHA.... ok! seriously! I must stop, else I might confuse this teeny tiny brain of mine and, without a doubt, end up like... eeerrr... them.... as I was entering something on some programmed application, I asked what should I write? and she said "absorbed" so I did what a person with an average intelligence quotient would do and wrote "absorbed"... then she confidently corrected me saying "U ma'am.. absorbed" which got this tiny little think tank of mine to do its usual routine: debate with itself internally.... A part of it is now questioning both of my ears if they have heard it correctly or did she meant absurd-- which was far fetched! plus can I write absurd there? the absurd context won't fit upon using the said program,, although now that I look at it in a wider scope and see that situation as a whole,, it's the best word there is in the English (Merriam or Webster or Oxford or whatever) dictionary that could exactly describe what just happened. It's as if "absurd" was created to have a word that could perfectly define and convey that moment. But that's another story... Now since she insisted the "U" part with utmost conviction, and since I am her student at the moment, I listened to the part of my brain which says "maybe it was their TERM,,, you know how different people from different working environments have different terms right? and looking back at the TRANS-LITE incident, which I previously thought as TRANS LIGHT " and so I keyed in "ABSURBED" with no questions asked... What?!? Can't blame me!
1. after having that thought that it's their own TERM..
2. My working hours ended 3 hours ago, not to mention we don't have overtime pay!
3. I want to get this thing over and done with so I could go HOME nah... ASAP
Then, upon writing my shift report, I noticed that she used "absurbed" (it looks like "suburb" hahaha) once again, but the letter U had been encircled and a small o was written just below it using a different marking pen. So it was really indeed ABSORBED!!!! HAHAHAHAHA..... MUST READ MORE!!!!
Anyway,, taas au ang intro, but that's not the reason why this entry is entitled STUCK... 4 months.... I've been working in THIS friggin company for FOUR ignominiously arduous months! I've been meaning to hand over that letter dated a month ago but I guess I just can't find the courage to do so. Now that I'm back from my First Ever Class which was Basic Shift Management held in Microtel, Davao City, I guess I can say I am OFFICIALLY STUCK!!!!
PWEDE FAST FORWARD to 2014!!!! I swear! Advanced Shift Management will be my last class in this friggin company!! I am not gonna take up RLP nor the class after that... although both seem surprisingly tempting,, especially the class after RLP which, if I'm not mistaken, will be at Australia or it comes with a TRIP to anywhere... oh well! I can do that without being attached to this comp! 2 yrs is enough!
1. after having that thought that it's their own TERM..
2. My working hours ended 3 hours ago, not to mention we don't have overtime pay!
3. I want to get this thing over and done with so I could go HOME nah... ASAP
Then, upon writing my shift report, I noticed that she used "absurbed" (it looks like "suburb" hahaha) once again, but the letter U had been encircled and a small o was written just below it using a different marking pen. So it was really indeed ABSORBED!!!! HAHAHAHAHA..... MUST READ MORE!!!!
Anyway,, taas au ang intro, but that's not the reason why this entry is entitled STUCK... 4 months.... I've been working in THIS friggin company for FOUR ignominiously arduous months! I've been meaning to hand over that letter dated a month ago but I guess I just can't find the courage to do so. Now that I'm back from my First Ever Class which was Basic Shift Management held in Microtel, Davao City, I guess I can say I am OFFICIALLY STUCK!!!!
PWEDE FAST FORWARD to 2014!!!! I swear! Advanced Shift Management will be my last class in this friggin company!! I am not gonna take up RLP nor the class after that... although both seem surprisingly tempting,, especially the class after RLP which, if I'm not mistaken, will be at Australia or it comes with a TRIP to anywhere... oh well! I can do that without being attached to this comp! 2 yrs is enough!
Sunday, September 9, 2012
13th
I've been debating with myself over this matter for as long as I can remember. I was never into this job even from the beginning,, OJE pa lang. OJE pa lang gyud, I know that this was not my thing. Unfortunately, I passed the OJE even though I was late during that 2-day-evaluation, and that's one of the factors why I accepted this job and chosen it over 2 other opportunities,, make that three, including the workshop --- oohh... don't make me start blabbing about the workshop--- moving on... yeah,, well, there were several instances which made me say "I've had enough! I quit!" then at the end of the day... "but then again...." and just when I was about to doze off "ok! I can't keep on doing these things for 2 more years"... it's a never ending debate until I've settled on a choice. Either a firm choice, which I doubt will happen, or a no turning back action, which is obviously connected with the title of this entry....
There were signs presented this day to help me with my decision:
1. In the Manager's Log book, GY manager wrote something about someone submitting ze controversial letter,,.. The book did not mention any names,, LOL
2. I got an email from DTI stating that I passed that one hell of a technical exam! and that I have another oral interview on Friday,, Bad news, I have a duty on that day.. Good News, No worries for the swap... Bad News, I'm giving up "no dragon day" and must encounter face-to-face with ze mythical and most anticipated DRAGON!!!
3. Despite having a very very usual bad day (although it was worse),, people checked up on me saying "Okay ra ka ma'am? ayaw pa apekto ma'am! sagdi sila ui! ayaw ka.stress" simple words that meant a lot and surprisingly made a deep impact... Plus, "kasab.i ma'am! buotan ra man sad kaayo ka! awata si *someone na di ko feel coz ang iyang aura is di masabtan*" naks! diay?!? okay! I'm minimizing my usage of annoying (to some) words....
aaahhh.... so which is which? To pursue, continue, and in a hope that someday I'll like what I am doing.... or take that RISK!!! aaaahhh >.<
The truth is... I'm still UNDECIDED!!!!
There were signs presented this day to help me with my decision:
1. In the Manager's Log book, GY manager wrote something about someone submitting ze controversial letter,,.. The book did not mention any names,, LOL
2. I got an email from DTI stating that I passed that one hell of a technical exam! and that I have another oral interview on Friday,, Bad news, I have a duty on that day.. Good News, No worries for the swap... Bad News, I'm giving up "no dragon day" and must encounter face-to-face with ze mythical and most anticipated DRAGON!!!
3. Despite having a very very usual bad day (although it was worse),, people checked up on me saying "Okay ra ka ma'am? ayaw pa apekto ma'am! sagdi sila ui! ayaw ka.stress" simple words that meant a lot and surprisingly made a deep impact... Plus, "kasab.i ma'am! buotan ra man sad kaayo ka! awata si *someone na di ko feel coz ang iyang aura is di masabtan*" naks! diay?!? okay! I'm minimizing my usage of annoying (to some) words....
aaahhh.... so which is which? To pursue, continue, and in a hope that someday I'll like what I am doing.... or take that RISK!!! aaaahhh >.<
The truth is... I'm still UNDECIDED!!!!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Make-Believe
I don't know why the movie Arthur made an impact. I just watched it a few hours ago on some cable channel I'm not disclosing the name coz for one, they're not paying me, rather it's the other way around,, and two, coz I feel like being mysterious today, although I think this doesn't count. Maybe for some reason I think it's because the lady protagonist in the movie is a frustrated writer (if you know what I mean) and then Arthur told her to chase her dream, something like quit your job and focus on this (referring to her manuscript).. and she did... eventually, she published the children's book and the acknowledgement or dedication says "to Arthur, for teaching me to believe in make-believe again" something like that. pppffftt!! I wish I was a kid again,, getting what I want was relatively effortless back then. If it's that easy to chase dreams then I'm supposed to be THERE today! Not HERE!!! Although this was my choice... at least on the bright side, I have proven that I do have a talent in writing.
Why do I love writing? It's because I can temporarily escape from the real world through writing. Anything I want to happen can happen here. I can create fictitious people, make phantasmagorical things happen, and nobody can dictate nor stop me because this is my story. It might be just an illusion, but this introspective world is what keeps me going. Through this, I can still hang on to things. LOL. Just saying things to have exaggerated melodramatic effect. What? People always buy those things!
A friend once told me to keep on writing not because I have to but because I want to. Writing may not be my job, but that doesn't stop me from doing what I love. So what if I don't get paid for my prodigious creations, so what if it's never going to be a major motion picture, so what if only a few or no one will be able to read my stories,,.. FOR NOW!!! Thus, I must not stop! Someday..... I'll quote a saying I got from a famous animation movie "If you want it, you will it.. if you will it, it will be yours!!"
As for my work,, 1month and still nowhere close to liking what I'm doing. I've sacrificed things just for this?!? I have even sacrificed my DREAM CAREER when it was right at my fingertips already!!!! I am surely INSANE!!!! The turn of events this week made me think that this is just PLAIN WRONG!! However, I am afraid that if I submit a specific letter, I don't know what's going to happen... I am still taking that test! It's future Rhean's problem if I pass that effin test!
~Them all ye brutally nice people!!!~
Why do I love writing? It's because I can temporarily escape from the real world through writing. Anything I want to happen can happen here. I can create fictitious people, make phantasmagorical things happen, and nobody can dictate nor stop me because this is my story. It might be just an illusion, but this introspective world is what keeps me going. Through this, I can still hang on to things. LOL. Just saying things to have exaggerated melodramatic effect. What? People always buy those things!
A friend once told me to keep on writing not because I have to but because I want to. Writing may not be my job, but that doesn't stop me from doing what I love. So what if I don't get paid for my prodigious creations, so what if it's never going to be a major motion picture, so what if only a few or no one will be able to read my stories,,.. FOR NOW!!! Thus, I must not stop! Someday..... I'll quote a saying I got from a famous animation movie "If you want it, you will it.. if you will it, it will be yours!!"
As for my work,, 1month and still nowhere close to liking what I'm doing. I've sacrificed things just for this?!? I have even sacrificed my DREAM CAREER when it was right at my fingertips already!!!! I am surely INSANE!!!! The turn of events this week made me think that this is just PLAIN WRONG!! However, I am afraid that if I submit a specific letter, I don't know what's going to happen... I am still taking that test! It's future Rhean's problem if I pass that effin test!
~Them all ye brutally nice people!!!~
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
14 Days
22 days of being EMPLOYED!!!! 8 days day-off.. which means I've been on duty for 14 days already!! In that 14 days,, I'm still firm! 55-45... For the record, I don't hate my job, I just don't like it! Yes! Working in that business establishment for 14 days had been a blissful ride, but that doesn't change the fact that it's not my thing. I am more of an office-type of person rather than on an actual area doing different sorts of stuff I am not passionate about. I'd rather face charts and numbers than face actual people, not to mention I've been avoiding bumping into friends, acquaintances, and even familiar faces. Oh the shame! the horror!
What keeps me going are the people I work with. The kind of people who can turn work to play. The homey feel. The feeling of being wanted. Okay! so the last one was a bit exaggerated. and No! I may not get that feel yet,, I'm still the noob in the group after all. However, I like that people are always checking up on me asking me if I'm okay, or how am I doing every once in a while. I'm taking one step at a time although I think I may have taken that step quicker than normal. I mean.. It only took them, well some of them, just a matter of 3weeks to figure me out and yes maybe crack a joke or two on me or with me... whatever! What matters is that I'm comfortable and so are they, or at least that's what I think. It's amazing how you can know a person well in a span of 3 weeks.
Last Monday, July 23, 2012, after I got my payroll atm card, I visited my friend who happens to be working at somewhere I consider picturing myself working in 4yrs or so. After taking that long walk to get there, I arrived 12minutes before 5. When I walked in, I walked in a dead air! It's one of those eerie rooms wherein the only thing you can hear is the faint tapping of the keyboard and the clock ticking. There were more or less 15 people in that room, each is busy minding their own as if they don't know each other. That 12 minutes is all it took for me to appreciate my job. At least the people I am working with SPEAK!!! THEY TALK!! I may not have my own desk, my own pc, nor my own cubicle, but I have loony people to entertain me and momentarily forget about these things.
Still, it doesn't change the fact that my brain is getting duller each day.... HELP!!!!
What keeps me going are the people I work with. The kind of people who can turn work to play. The homey feel. The feeling of being wanted. Okay! so the last one was a bit exaggerated. and No! I may not get that feel yet,, I'm still the noob in the group after all. However, I like that people are always checking up on me asking me if I'm okay, or how am I doing every once in a while. I'm taking one step at a time although I think I may have taken that step quicker than normal. I mean.. It only took them, well some of them, just a matter of 3weeks to figure me out and yes maybe crack a joke or two on me or with me... whatever! What matters is that I'm comfortable and so are they, or at least that's what I think. It's amazing how you can know a person well in a span of 3 weeks.
Last Monday, July 23, 2012, after I got my payroll atm card, I visited my friend who happens to be working at somewhere I consider picturing myself working in 4yrs or so. After taking that long walk to get there, I arrived 12minutes before 5. When I walked in, I walked in a dead air! It's one of those eerie rooms wherein the only thing you can hear is the faint tapping of the keyboard and the clock ticking. There were more or less 15 people in that room, each is busy minding their own as if they don't know each other. That 12 minutes is all it took for me to appreciate my job. At least the people I am working with SPEAK!!! THEY TALK!! I may not have my own desk, my own pc, nor my own cubicle, but I have loony people to entertain me and momentarily forget about these things.
Still, it doesn't change the fact that my brain is getting duller each day.... HELP!!!!
Monday, July 9, 2012
CONTRACT: SIGNED!!!!
My first job ever!! Well technically after graduation coz if I remember correctly, my very first job which means with salary is as a Psychological Test administrator. I consider it as my very first Summer Job. Then a month ago I got an Online Job as a general transcriptionist and I receive payments weekly depending on the amount (AM or Audio Minutes) of transcriptions I do.
I was hesitant to get the job because, well, I don't think the job suits me. But then again, I gave it a thought and realized that I am used to pursuing things that doesn't fit me because well for one, I find it interesting and second I find it as an opportunity for me to improve.
What is WRONG with the world!!! Kung maka-timing sila WAGAS!!! Kada ORIENTATION man jud... 2 weeks ago, June 19, 2012, on my way to T's orientation nag call si MC.... tapos pagdating ko sa house, hello DTI.... Then today, Before the orientation started I got a txt from MB..... SIGH!!! Anyway,,.. SOON!!
I got sold sa BENEFITS and training daw sa Manila during that 7months.... Most of all... I got SOLD sa idea na after 7months or less, I'll be promoted to an Asst. Manager position and in a span of 2yrs I'll become a manager na daw... Training for the manager? ABROAD!!!! ^___^
BENEFITS:
1. CHEKRET xp
I was hesitant to get the job because, well, I don't think the job suits me. But then again, I gave it a thought and realized that I am used to pursuing things that doesn't fit me because well for one, I find it interesting and second I find it as an opportunity for me to improve.
What is WRONG with the world!!! Kung maka-timing sila WAGAS!!! Kada ORIENTATION man jud... 2 weeks ago, June 19, 2012, on my way to T's orientation nag call si MC.... tapos pagdating ko sa house, hello DTI.... Then today, Before the orientation started I got a txt from MB..... SIGH!!! Anyway,,.. SOON!!
I got sold sa BENEFITS and training daw sa Manila during that 7months.... Most of all... I got SOLD sa idea na after 7months or less, I'll be promoted to an Asst. Manager position and in a span of 2yrs I'll become a manager na daw... Training for the manager? ABROAD!!!! ^___^
BENEFITS:
1. CHEKRET xp
Nonsense Scribbling that I might regret posting
Yep. I always end up regretting some of the things I blog in the past, this post will not be an exception.. I have gazillions of reasons to support that, well actually 1. One heavy reason which I will not risk writing and will eventually go somewhere in my version of "Land of the Lost." Well I won't be surprised if one day I'll just laugh at this post of mine, or wouldn't care less. Because I know, for sure this will soon pass xp
Ok. Senti time. Time check: 12:15am, not to mention that I still have to wake up early tomorrow for my orientation. Obviously, one of the reasons for blogging is to ease the mental burden that's causing me debating whether or not the decision that I am about to take tomorrow is the RIGHT one. Only thing I know is that I hate the work, I love the peepz. Then what if I'll get lucky and have that slot for the Creative Writing Workshop? It will be like a big break for me. ok! Slap me! I'm delusional!
Then there's THAT!!! Don't you know how awkward it is for me to you know! And I thought things were if not back, at least it's gradually getting back to normal. I thought so! Guess I was wrong! Oh I'll tell you what!! *my letter is in an unpublished post =p in case things might turn out for the worse which I think is actually happening xp* Mouth SHUT! ZIPPED! LOCKED! and I threw the key far far away! Bye key! In case you didn't get the KEY is a figure of speech. Still don't get it? Why not try figuring it out! or Maybe not! There's no use anyway. The so-called KEY is at God-knows-where,, doubt you could find it. If by chance you would, can you be a dear to remind me to throw it again somewhere even farther.
Wheeww!! Another post. done. screwed. don't care.
Thoughts to ponder: Chances are only given once, you're even lucky if you could have it!
Ok. Senti time. Time check: 12:15am, not to mention that I still have to wake up early tomorrow for my orientation. Obviously, one of the reasons for blogging is to ease the mental burden that's causing me debating whether or not the decision that I am about to take tomorrow is the RIGHT one. Only thing I know is that I hate the work, I love the peepz. Then what if I'll get lucky and have that slot for the Creative Writing Workshop? It will be like a big break for me. ok! Slap me! I'm delusional!
Then there's THAT!!! Don't you know how awkward it is for me to you know! And I thought things were if not back, at least it's gradually getting back to normal. I thought so! Guess I was wrong! Oh I'll tell you what!! *my letter is in an unpublished post =p in case things might turn out for the worse which I think is actually happening xp* Mouth SHUT! ZIPPED! LOCKED! and I threw the key far far away! Bye key! In case you didn't get the KEY is a figure of speech. Still don't get it? Why not try figuring it out! or Maybe not! There's no use anyway. The so-called KEY is at God-knows-where,, doubt you could find it. If by chance you would, can you be a dear to remind me to throw it again somewhere even farther.
Wheeww!! Another post. done. screwed. don't care.
Thoughts to ponder: Chances are only given once, you're even lucky if you could have it!
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
L O S T
After much thought and thorough deliberation, I finally came up with a decision... eeehh!!! Wrong!!!
Tuesday.... June 19, 2012 at around 10:32 AM I got the most dreaded call....
Let's move a little way back.... 9:23AM --> I got the call from *Insert name here* informing me that I have an orientation at 1pm even if I'm not yet done with the requirements coz I'll start working tomorrow... so I said okay... I'm on my way to the medical examination center to deliver my test samples xp bringing with me several documents and a book... I already prepared everything I have to bring, most especially my bio-data so I can get my sss nah, with the help of course from my friend's father. Then for some unknown reason, probably because of my being forgetful, I realized that I left the most important document, which is my bio-data, when I arrived at the center. So I hurriedly meet with A***, a fellow Jfinex officer, and gave him those garbage... oopps.. documents rather and the book.. I didn't even enter the campus and chose to ride the motorcycle to get to the jeepney stop to go back home and retrieve what I left.
As I was riding the motorcycle, my phone vibrated simultaneously signalling an incoming call. My heart palpitated. I pressed answer in a hope that it wasn't what I thought it was.. and yes it was! Tremor took over me. I got my most dreaded call.. I got the call before I could even get my sss, which I was about to do. They rang just when I was about to get my sss and finalize everything. I'm really thinking things over, no idea as to what was happening around me. I texted a few friends for help, some I guess was a bad idea (must keep in mind those people I should text), and of course I texted my mom. When I got home, my mom called telling me to figure things out. We had the talk over the weekend and she's biased I tell you. She favored the asdfghjkkl without even thinking of what I felt back then. My father, as usual, doesn't care what I'll choose. But then to my surprise, she's keeping her hands off of the matter and she's letting me decide, which of course doesn't help at that state. So as suggested, I went to see Sir **** the manager, to ask a few questions. It was a matter between life and death! LOL.. just kidding... I was hoping I could arrange things, and sadly, he said "no" and think things over. He explained a few things which should really require a lot of thinking, then it strikes me.... "personally, I mean, sa ako lang I want you here... but it's your own decision" The feeling of being wanted surpassed everything, then I said Yes! I think I deserve it. Having experienced being the last resort was HELL,,, thanks to quite a FEW, very FEW friends (could personally name them) who made me realize some things. I may be living the dream of some that's why I did what I did.
I might not like what my soon to be Job is, but for sure I will enjoy doing it because of those awesome people. Those people who can make me feel special. The people who have seen my worth. They didn't look past me. I had been informed that one of my OJE-mates did not get the call. That's when I wondered what's the factor for the selection? She's got beauty but I can say I have the brains, although it takes time for someone to figure that out, not in a matter of 2 days or so. I'm the only one who arrived late during the OJE. Was always last, during the initial interview via skype I was 30min late; During the first day of OJE, arrived 2min late good thing Sir **** was late as well, During the 2nd day of OJE I arrived 20min late and they even found out.. it went like "good morning sir" and he's like "good morning :) you're late *grin*" (I can't forget that haunting smile,.. thought that was the end of it)... even during the final interview. I'm also the only one who don't have any experience yet, the youngest in the group. Others had been or is in a managerial position -- when you think about it, I'm just a noob in the group. Yet, despite that, they might have seen my potential. I did not even show my TOR yet, not that it's something worth boasting about -- well good thing they didn't ask for my TOR yet, else I'm doomed!!! Anyway, the point is, they picked me among others! No idea why.. I did not even take written exams which will test your intelligence or that kind of stuffs... well we only took situational essay... an essay that's too easy! LOL
I decided to inform them (asdfghjkl) personally, while still discerning and on my way to asdfghjkl while texting some friends.... Since I don't want to be late for the so-called orientation, in case I change my mind, I decided na mag.double ride nalang... And just when I stepped out sa aircon na car, too late for me to realize na wala man diay "step" so ayun... SPLAK!! that embarrassing moment.... natauhan ko kalit! hahahaha.... I took it as a sign,, like the one when I was about to get my bio-data and file for sss... Fastforward Home.... Kala ko everything's okay nah,, hindi pala.... I was greeted by a letter from the government agency which I applied for 2months ago informing me that I passed the test and is scheduled for another test. Talk about perfect timing!!
Then I got the sarcastic remark at a time like this! It may look fun but it's not!!! I thought the shedding of tears days were over... guess I was wrong!! hhmmm.... I can still remember feeling overjoyed when I was asked for the interview and exam.... Haven't heard from them so I've moved on.... then all of a sudden after a month or so, asking me to have a final interview. I was hesitant due to the thought that it was just because of someone I know and not because of the fact that they want me there, but I still went there and to my dismay... ok! erase erase!!.... for the first, I cried at a cab, not because I got my heart broken but because I got my i-dont-know-what broken.... It was even raining during that time... alone, crying at the cab... then moved on.... Next,, when they call me again for another interview after a million years -- again due to someone I know, and not because they want me... Finally, when I didn't accept the job and somebody said something.... When I told my mom about this, except for the emo part thingy, I was surprised she's reasoning with the same reasons I have. She finally see it MY way. I can tell, apart from me, only 2 people see the matter like how I see it. Appreciate that so much.. Thank you!! Ok, so the other 1 is my mom...
I also would like to thank my fellow OJE-ans for the wisdom.... Thank you =)) I know sometimes we have to be frank, but we must not forget that a person has his/her own limits too. Di lahat ng oras feel mo kaya nya... Wag na kasi dumagdag pah!!! Fine... my fault.... ako na... lagi naman...... like what? sure! rot in hell? oh I will!!! Ok lang pala na kahit lahat ng tao ayaw sa'yo,,, basta alam mo there are still people who believe in you. Who'll stand with you..... and that.... that's what I call FRIEND =)) Thank you
Notes: Decisions... decisions.... we have to make certain choices.... Kala ko Astig tignan... the truth is, it's different if you're the one who's actually in that position and the one who's just watching.... Regrets? Happy naman ako with my choice,,, my brain is telling me that's just plain stupid but my self worth is thanking me right now.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Dilemma
I'm supposed to be happy right now, right? Ecstatic even! But then I'm NOT!!! If it came a month earlier or so, it would have been different. I might even look past the waiting-for-several-hours-but-was-eventually-neglected. Now, If I ever get that call, I must make a decision.. a tough decision. I already thought about the pros and cons yesterday but still can't come up with a decision so I thought maybe putting it into writing might help.
Management Trainee or Accounting Staff? Which is which....
Accounting Staff:
Pros:
Management Trainee:
Pros:
Cons:
~~ Now I can totally post this... ayoko kasing mag.fineeling na matatanggap ako... pero ayun... tada
Management Trainee or Accounting Staff? Which is which....
Accounting Staff:
Pros:
- In line with my course
- In 2 yrs, I can already take up my masters as planned
- I can put my knowledge into practice and learn some accounting database
- Dili kaayo expose akong dagway
- Very Challenging in terms of pag.sayo and the bosses
- BAWAL LATE.... if ma.late, broadcast lamang
- Salary
- That thing they did... (I might be forgetful, but things as heavy as that?!? Asa ka pa!!!)
Notes:
* My Friends might kill me if I don't accept it
*If I accept it, what if pumalpak ako
Management Trainee:
Pros:
- Every establishment has accounting staffs, but not all have Management Trainees or Managers in Training
- Benefits/ Salary
- Okay lang ma.late (They even PASS me sa OJE bisan late ko sa 2nd day) and wala daw deduction sa late (according sa dating worker didto)
- Super Friendly the Managers
- I'll get the chance to develop my verbal communication and relational skill
- Hello Ayala
- DAVAO and other places XD
Cons:
- Exposed my face
- Matatagalan pa my Masters
- Have to speak to strangers
Notes:
* No pressure nga from everyone pero exposed naman my face
~~ Now I can totally post this... ayoko kasing mag.fineeling na matatanggap ako... pero ayun... tada
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
randomssss
What's new? Oh I'll tell you what's new! New is the fact that I still don't have a job considering it's ENROLLMENT time already! New is when I'm still at home planning to watch a few series after I'm done reading this book written by Gemma Burgess, who I find surprisingly witty, which I doubt I could apply all those stuffs written there except for the "Congratulations you just won a dinner with *insert your name here*!!" New is I still don't care!! wait... those aren't new!! Exactly!!! Nothing is new!!! and Nothing will ever be!!!
Thanks to the internet, laptop, a couple of dvds, and my portable I was able to waste my summer fantastically without ever thinking that 2 months has already passed. Very productive I'd say.
Randomnesssss.... randomness is when in the middle of reading a book or watching an episode of a series, you would blog something. Randomness is when you're friend sent you a message about a post she just saw which you happen to see several months ago then thinking thoughtfully in search for the answer which might seem apparent. Randomnessss is when you had a very very very long intellectually life-fulfilling conversation with two of your friends and a random person your friends knew over a bottle of rhum... ok, maybe 2 bottles,, regardless if you'll get the chance to apply if not all, some of them, some time. Who would've thought that the funniest and at the same time most serious discourses happen when people are semi-wasted, or prolly wasted! crash prolly! darn! I must stick with probably! it's PROBABLY you effin-- ok! whatever-- like what the book said, play it cool. Fake it until you feel it.
4am?!? 4AM I tell you!!! I was out till 4AM!!! can you believe that!!! The last time I was out was when the time the evil witch appeared in my life in the form of, yep! an evil witch!!! She made my life --no! not my life!-- she made my afternoon, and maybe the rest of the evening a total nightmare!!! ok! enough with the evil bitch! I mean witch! and did I mention she has this tattooed red-ish eyebrows which emphasizes her inquisitive deadly stare as if she were a cannibal eyeing her prey. well, she might be. enough said about the witch! She's gonna be popular!!
As much as I would love to share and tell you about stuffs I vaguely remember before memory loss hits me and forget all of them, I can't.... or maybe... just maybe....
Thanks to the internet, laptop, a couple of dvds, and my portable I was able to waste my summer fantastically without ever thinking that 2 months has already passed. Very productive I'd say.
Randomnesssss.... randomness is when in the middle of reading a book or watching an episode of a series, you would blog something. Randomness is when you're friend sent you a message about a post she just saw which you happen to see several months ago then thinking thoughtfully in search for the answer which might seem apparent. Randomnessss is when you had a very very very long intellectually life-fulfilling conversation with two of your friends and a random person your friends knew over a bottle of rhum... ok, maybe 2 bottles,, regardless if you'll get the chance to apply if not all, some of them, some time. Who would've thought that the funniest and at the same time most serious discourses happen when people are semi-wasted, or prolly wasted! crash prolly! darn! I must stick with probably! it's PROBABLY you effin-- ok! whatever-- like what the book said, play it cool. Fake it until you feel it.
4am?!? 4AM I tell you!!! I was out till 4AM!!! can you believe that!!! The last time I was out was when the time the evil witch appeared in my life in the form of, yep! an evil witch!!! She made my life --no! not my life!-- she made my afternoon, and maybe the rest of the evening a total nightmare!!! ok! enough with the evil bitch! I mean witch! and did I mention she has this tattooed red-ish eyebrows which emphasizes her inquisitive deadly stare as if she were a cannibal eyeing her prey. well, she might be. enough said about the witch! She's gonna be popular!!
As much as I would love to share and tell you about stuffs I vaguely remember before memory loss hits me and forget all of them, I can't.... or maybe... just maybe....
Part-time
At around 11:30PM, I am finally done with the said training... or just the Q & A portion,.. together with 6 other people... Trainings are mostly done through videos and reading materials. I was surprised to see that I think, I am the only one who have actually read and have actually watched those videos beforehand. There were gazillions of them I tell you!! The instruction was to check the vids, I did not expect that the reading material is an assignment that's good for a week.. I've read and watch those for what? almost a day!!!
The first part. The signing of contract and the reading of terms and conditions took me roughly around 2 hours. Since it's already 3PM, plus it's raining wild cats and wild dogs making the videos barely audible, I decided to get the 9PM training schedule. Ok. so it could only take a few minutes to sign-download-fill up-scan-save the 2 documents, but I want to know what I am about to enter into. My name's at stake here, I might get imprisoned just by signing; as they say -- Better be safe than sorry.-- Paranoid? nah! Just being cautious.
After sending the signed documents, at around five in the afternoon, I received another email from them. It's a training reading material to get me started. The first part of the video was composed of almost an hour of brief introduction explaining how things work. Then a few other vids. The vids would sum up around 3hours. Plus the reading materials which, in my opinion, take forever to read from cover to cover. It's like reading a novel. An audio-book novel to be exact.
I was tensed for a while as the clock approached 9PM. It will be my second time to actually use skype. Well, my first time to use it at home. Would you believe that my first time to use skype was last Friday?!? Yes! and it was a job interview. Ok moving on. let's not touch that subject! I was curious to meet these other people and to hear their voices. What it's like to group video-call on skype? The thought sends butterflies fluttering in my stomach. Finally the most awaited call came... and WOW!!! A group call with no camera and we're all on mute except for the trainer, or should I say - the call center agent. The poor call center agent whom I took the time to actually google for his background and find the time to explore his facebook, which I didn't quite succeed thanks to the privacy setting on facebook. The same call center agent, if I'm not mistaken, who was demonstrating on the vids. gawd! Talk about wearing several hats. I didn't know whether to laugh or admire his dedication and perseverance towards work. I can sense by his constant sniffing that he's not feeling well, however his voice leaves no trace of colds or sickness (aside from the sniffing). My guess is that he starts work at 3pm and ends at around 11pm there in Cebu. He probably even have other jobs for all I know. Now that's really something. I have to admire him for this.
While he was talking, I sensed that he is a filipino because of his accent. I mean, it's not SLANG enough. hahahahaha. but still, do I really have to communicate with him in english?!? I mean, cmon!! Let's love our language (yet I'm writing in English)!! Kelan kaya matututong mahalin ng mga pinoy ang sariling wika natin?
Tomorrow I'll officially start TRANSCRIBING!!!!
The first part. The signing of contract and the reading of terms and conditions took me roughly around 2 hours. Since it's already 3PM, plus it's raining wild cats and wild dogs making the videos barely audible, I decided to get the 9PM training schedule. Ok. so it could only take a few minutes to sign-download-fill up-scan-save the 2 documents, but I want to know what I am about to enter into. My name's at stake here, I might get imprisoned just by signing; as they say -- Better be safe than sorry.-- Paranoid? nah! Just being cautious.
After sending the signed documents, at around five in the afternoon, I received another email from them. It's a training reading material to get me started. The first part of the video was composed of almost an hour of brief introduction explaining how things work. Then a few other vids. The vids would sum up around 3hours. Plus the reading materials which, in my opinion, take forever to read from cover to cover. It's like reading a novel. An audio-book novel to be exact.
I was tensed for a while as the clock approached 9PM. It will be my second time to actually use skype. Well, my first time to use it at home. Would you believe that my first time to use skype was last Friday?!? Yes! and it was a job interview. Ok moving on. let's not touch that subject! I was curious to meet these other people and to hear their voices. What it's like to group video-call on skype? The thought sends butterflies fluttering in my stomach. Finally the most awaited call came... and WOW!!! A group call with no camera and we're all on mute except for the trainer, or should I say - the call center agent. The poor call center agent whom I took the time to actually google for his background and find the time to explore his facebook, which I didn't quite succeed thanks to the privacy setting on facebook. The same call center agent, if I'm not mistaken, who was demonstrating on the vids. gawd! Talk about wearing several hats. I didn't know whether to laugh or admire his dedication and perseverance towards work. I can sense by his constant sniffing that he's not feeling well, however his voice leaves no trace of colds or sickness (aside from the sniffing). My guess is that he starts work at 3pm and ends at around 11pm there in Cebu. He probably even have other jobs for all I know. Now that's really something. I have to admire him for this.
While he was talking, I sensed that he is a filipino because of his accent. I mean, it's not SLANG enough. hahahahaha. but still, do I really have to communicate with him in english?!? I mean, cmon!! Let's love our language (yet I'm writing in English)!! Kelan kaya matututong mahalin ng mga pinoy ang sariling wika natin?
Tomorrow I'll officially start TRANSCRIBING!!!!
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Shows I miss
These shows make me feel OLD T_________T
How Many can you Identify??

The show aired for four seasons between 1993 and 1996 on Nickelodeon
Disney!!!
The original run of the second series was from September 11, 1993 to May 11, 1996.
I remember role-playing this with my friends way back in elementary..... Take note... we memorized the Opening song.... hahahaha
First aired on ABC from 1997 through to 2001 and reruns aired on Disney Channel
Aired: September 7, 2002 – April 20, 2005
In 1998, Cartoon Network aired an English dub of the anime in Southeast Asia and Mandarin-speaking countries.
the series was pulled from the air in early 2001. Mah fav character!! Can you name her?
ooppzz!! got carried away...
"Hi! I'm Eliza thornberry. Part of your average Family.. I got a dad, a mum, and a sister... that's Donny, we found him! and darwin, he found us.. I can talk to animals, but it's a secret..." --hahaha... that's all I can recall...
"Hi, I'm Eliza Thornberry Part of your average family I got a dad A mom And...A sister That's Donnie We found him and Darwin He found us About our house It moves Because we travel all over the world You see my dad holds his nature show And...my mom shoots it Okay so we're not that average But between you and me Something amazing happened And now I can talk to animals It's pretty cool and totally secret And you know what? Life will never be the same" ---Yep!! memorized this before.... hahahaha... plus the song....
September 1, 1998 – March 11, 2004
The series ran for three seasons from 1996 to 1999
WoW! In terms of cartoons,,,, guess I'm more of a Nickelodeon fan... hahaha... Nicktoons!!!
Can you name These Sit-coms...

OMG!!! I really MISS THIS!!!! The funniest and the most entertaining show (for me) waaayyy bbbaacck...
See there's Amanda Bynes there....
The last episode aired on October 22, 2005
If I'm not mistaken,, her show was part of ALL THAT SHOW... as well as the first one there....
"TOTALLY!!!!" hahahahaha....
Part of ALL THAT!!!
OOOhhhhh.... is it all that,... is it all that.... aaaahhh.... MUST WATCH THIS AGAIN!!!!
for the GAME SHOW category....
Was it called the tower?? ooohhh.... I forgot....
Can't get enough SLIME!!!!
MY FAV GAME SHOW EVAH!!!!!
How Many can you Identify??
The show aired for four seasons between 1993 and 1996 on Nickelodeon
The original run of the second series was from September 11, 1993 to May 11, 1996.
I remember role-playing this with my friends way back in elementary..... Take note... we memorized the Opening song.... hahahaha
First aired on ABC from 1997 through to 2001 and reruns aired on Disney Channel
Aired: September 7, 2002 – April 20, 2005
In 1998, Cartoon Network aired an English dub of the anime in Southeast Asia and Mandarin-speaking countries.
the series was pulled from the air in early 2001. Mah fav character!! Can you name her?
"Hi! I'm Eliza thornberry. Part of your average Family.. I got a dad, a mum, and a sister... that's Donny, we found him! and darwin, he found us.. I can talk to animals, but it's a secret..." --hahaha... that's all I can recall...
"Hi, I'm Eliza Thornberry Part of your average family I got a dad A mom And...A sister That's Donnie We found him and Darwin He found us About our house It moves Because we travel all over the world You see my dad holds his nature show And...my mom shoots it Okay so we're not that average But between you and me Something amazing happened And now I can talk to animals It's pretty cool and totally secret And you know what? Life will never be the same" ---Yep!! memorized this before.... hahahaha... plus the song....
September 1, 1998 – March 11, 2004
The series ran for three seasons from 1996 to 1999
WoW! In terms of cartoons,,,, guess I'm more of a Nickelodeon fan... hahaha... Nicktoons!!!
Can you name These Sit-coms...
OMG!!! I really MISS THIS!!!! The funniest and the most entertaining show (for me) waaayyy bbbaacck...
See there's Amanda Bynes there....
The last episode aired on October 22, 2005
If I'm not mistaken,, her show was part of ALL THAT SHOW... as well as the first one there....
Part of ALL THAT!!!
OOOhhhhh.... is it all that,... is it all that.... aaaahhh.... MUST WATCH THIS AGAIN!!!!
for the GAME SHOW category....
Was it called the tower?? ooohhh.... I forgot....
Can't get enough SLIME!!!!
MY FAV GAME SHOW EVAH!!!!!
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