F*cking Fed UP!!!!!

You know how I often think twice publishing something I write on the spur of the moment just because of the thought that sooner or later I might regret it.....

hah! This is not one of them!!!!

I've had enough already, so I don't think my exposés would be much of a self-reproach in the future.

Being accused... no,, erase that! Being BLAMED for someone else's mistake is quite a part of my day-to-day routine! I didn't know I had signed up for this! I didn't know this was part of my JOB friggin DESCRIPTION until... well.. until I had entered the gates of hell where turning back was never an option!!!! 

Last night....
I had taken another charge.... that is NOT SENDING some freakin report.... FUCK!!! It was not supposed to be my JOB that time to send the reports,,, Not even aware the internet connection was down,,, as if I have the leisure of checking it! Like I would check my facebook there! I don't even have an email at your repugnant website (and would never dream of having one!).... you didn't fucking tell me that it was part of my abhorrent routine to check some friggin internet connection and maybe fix it! Fuck!!! Technician ba ko?!?!

Second, How am I supposed to know what had happened when I'm not there!!! Am I supposed to be present at the store 24/7?!?!?! SHIT!!!! I was not even the MIC that time!!!!! Dili ba enough na ga-overtime nako,, shelling out my precious LOAD para lang macontact ang dapat i.contact!!! Then telling me I fall short!!!! SHORT mo mukha mo!!! Ako na gani nag-reach out! Ako na nag-una2.... so now I'm getting all the BLAME for that?!?!?!


Tooddaaayyy.....
Yes it wasn't your fault... yes, partly my fault.... pero I can't deny that the one at FAULT here is that friggin BASHfucknTARD!!!! Akala mo easy2 lang... report pa!! MAGPAKASAWA KA!!!!! CURSE YOU!!!!! SUNOD2 unta na KAMALASAN muabot sa imooooo!!!!! THE DEVIL WEARS ORANGE POLO SHIRT DRINKING HOT COFFEE READING SOME FUCKN NEWSPAPER ---> yes! That's my image of YOU!!!! Ikaw kaya dri!!! Look oh... I'm RESIGNING.... you can get this job if you want!!! If you really love the friggin company then why not go back again?? Or why resign in the first place?!? Oh!! That's right!!! YOU DIDN'T HAVE A FUCKING CHOICE coz you were KICKED OUT!!!!! TALKING BIG yun pala..... may BIG ISSUE LEFT behind man diay!!!!! Sad.... I pity you! Nothing left to do but ruin someone else's day all because of some hidden frustration!


Eto pah..... Validated slips,,,,, I wonder nganu ako napasanginlan adto?!?! Di man ako nag-release...... di pud ako ang safe that time..... INJUSTICE!!!!


Pero pinaka-worst scenario.....
PAYING an amount na nawala without INVESTIGATION!!!!
If you'll say at my own will.... hah! Ikaw kuno in my shoes..... EYES on you,, waiting for your answer... no! They're waiting for you to say "AKO NALANG MAGBAYAD!!!".... pressure much?!?! kinsay dili ma-annoy!!! para mahuman nah!!!

Wala man lang DUE PROCESS?!?!? Tapos parang wala lang!!!! Talk about FAIRNESS!!!!



Those are just some of the things which made me regret having accepted the job in the first place.... and looking forward sa date na OCTOBER 23, 2013!!!!


MAGPAKASAWA na kayo isisi sa ako tanan while you still CAN!!!!

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Friggin night! Oh well.... it was an AWESOME day!!!! Just when I thought the day wouldn't get any better.....


Sigh! Temporary state of euphoria.... I am soooo gullible! Still keeping my fingers crossed... choc.choc.choc... exoited!  At least I've discovered something..... something which I thought was missing wherein in fact, it wasn't there to begin with after all. Again,, I'm not repeating the same mistake I did last December of LongForgottenNeverToBeRemembered. I know it might not be the best decision but this time, I'll let it be. Let nature take its course and if it will it, it will be. If I ever regret this, remind me to take chances and risk next time. Oh... I just hope not.... Being careful is one, Rejection is another.... *hehehe* ---> it's stuck in my head like my favorite song,,, I put the scene on pause... it still plays on...... It's nhowwtthheeeenngg..... Future you,,, hope you do understand..... I just end it sooner than expected. I skip the good part and went directly for the kill. Saves us time, effort, and the list goes on. 

Wait! I remember something!!  Finally! I get to experience a How I Met Your Mother Episode!!! hahahaha... I get to have a One Night of Fun and get to relive it over and over again in my head. Like Cinderella, a while after the clock strikes twelve, our fun-filled conversation ended; like it was just a dream.  a memory that will never be tarnished. Then, when we're old and gray, we'll look back on this moment... and it'll be perfect. - Victoria, How I met your mother

PS: I hate to break this to you but you might want to cross out "Singer" on your career list ;-)

My mind wanders when I'm not feeling well

MUB-ON!!! Di na tas-on!!! hahahaha.... kay fine watevs!

Thank GOD for fb!!! Well,, and for my improved researching skill.. it has improved and has served me quite well. Saveh pa ng trending post sa fb, inspired by the MMK episode earlier, "thou shall not assume unless otherwise stated." Gawsh! If it had dragged on a couple of days longer, god knows what will happen!

Hello June! How are you?? I missed you you know! and May too! However, I think it's fine to miss may. I wouldn't have to worry getting old if I miss her... Well, I can't wait for July! Gawsh! July just flew, and I don't  have any clue! A year felt like days... Nooooo!!!

Yep. Almost a year of service It's like roasting you and dipping you directly to a boiling pot of whatever. My 3 months plan could potentially turn to years,, 3 tormenting years! To prevent that from happening I must figure out the gentlest way to break it to them,.. and FAST!!! My dreams are slipping away one by one,, I don't want to lose anything any more.

Second Time Around

Hahaiiizz.... Back to work napud,... I can't get my brain to work so yeah.. I'll just babble and type whatever comes into mind,, kapoi na check sa grammar and look for other terms.

Gulong gulo na isip ko.... oh well... Magulo naman talaga ako... Random thoughts....

I am soooo easily pleased.... simple things can already make my day. =) In simple term: UTO-UTO!!!

Inspired daaaww ooohh..... hahahaha.... epekto sa wai lingaw,

On my previous post, I had shared with you 3 reasons which highlighted my week. Among those were some reasons why I did this to my hair. Fine! The reason why I did what I did!

Trivial Reason: Waley nah mamadlong xp

and voila! Waley jud! What I got, If you may ask... I got a supppeeerr duuupppeeerrr kanchaw na laugh..... It's a loooonnggg "O_O Whhaaaa---- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...... What did you do?!?!" I mean... just what the..... Thanks a lot! As much as I would want to share the reason, samok nah.... I managed to say "wah koi lingaw" which was somewhat true.

Truthfully, After pila ka-years.... karon pa nako na-appreciate ang sermon.... and I badly miss the sermon T_____T unluckily,,, that was then,, and this is now..... Bahala nah!! KEBS!!!! Wish I had realized it sooner.... hahaaaiiizzz.....


Hahaiiizzz,,,, uto-uto nga naman.... okay nako sa pretensions ui! Basta as long as it can get me going... ohwkeeyy nako ^_^



But still on the GRIEVING stage....

Girl in Black

Wow! Just.... WOW!!! 3 devastating news hit me... all at once!!! Could this day possibly get any worse?!?

Devastating News #1: Top of my list.... ODEZA T_T Kinsa nalang ang magtyaga na maminaw sa akong mga nonsense ramblings..... Kinsa nalang ang musalubong sa ako kada gabii pag-muuli ko bisan kadlawon nah..... Kinsa nalang ang mag-comfort sa ako kada down kaayo ko..... Kinsa nalang akong masugo muaway sa mga kaaway nakooo..... Odeeeezzzaaaaa T_T Pero on the bright side,,, at least di na ka mag-antos.... I'll pray for you and di tika kalimtan T_T

Devastating News #2: Di xaaaa devastating!!!! Yes!! Di xa devastating!!! Again!!! dili problemahon ang mga dili angay problemahon!!! naa naman nah!! wala nakoi mabuhat anah.... labon sauna bitaw.... tan.awa karon!!!!!! Duh! At least I don't have to put up with that arrogant-full-of-hot-air-super-vain memewww!!!

Devastating News #3: Back to work tomorrow T_T hahaiiiizzz..... wah nai mas-devastating pa anah?!? except for #1 NEWS....

POST NO BILL

What?!? Okay. You caught me,, and yes the title has nothing to do with the content of this post. I just feel like posting something, and "post no bill" just popped in! One of these days I'll write this on some random wall, that way if ever I'll get caught they can't punish me coz I'm not violating any rules and they don't consider it as vandalizing, do they? Wonder where I've read this one. I don't really know what to name this post, as you can see.. well, not literally see,  but a lot of things are running in my mind right now. Things I can't express with words alone.... nah! Actually, it's just some random typical things.

I haven't updated my blog in a while so I thought I might write another entry.... hmmm... what should I write?

Random things that keeps on popping::::

Random thing #1:
Store was closed for 3 days. We had a sprinkler test and luckily, I was the first blood. I don't want to dwell on it any longer. What's been done is done.

Random thing #2:
Define A-W-K-W-A-R-D! Okay! so there was no awkwardness DURING the incident,,, but the after effect?!?!? LIKE HELLO!!!!! How would you describe a situation wherein you haven't seen someone for the longest time... like say, almost 9 yrs. Well, I think I might have seen him around school during college, but during that time there's no Hi/Hello... not even the slightest bit of recognition from both parties. But today! Yes! Today! I don't really know what's with this day that brought us to uh.... react that way! perhaps it was due to whatever impulse there was. Was it the stare and that temporary electrifying moment which resulted to the "wave"? That I don't know. All I know is that it's as if time is of no essence. As if it's our everyday thing. I wonder when's our next fateful encounter? Hoping it's still CASUAL.

Random thing #3:
First and foremost, it's not like it's a first that someone wrote something about you on some random website. Okay! So I think I might have decided long ago to never write anything about you,,, but thoughts are thoughts and actions are actions. What we think may be different from what we say and what we do. Fine! Guess I'm just making some lame excuses. What's there to write anyway! hahahaha... I know! I'm not making any sense here,, but do we really need to make sense all the time? I think the answer you're looking for is NO. Yes? No! What I just wanted to say is that I DON'T KNOW!!!! Actually I wanted to scream that straight to your face, not that I actually know how to scream,, so I've come to a conclusion to write-- which (just in case you don't know yet) I do better than screaming-- about it. I don't know what happened along the way! Last time I checked, my eyes were both functional. How did it happen? How did we became like this? Really? Have I been abducted and my memory got erased by the green-big-eyed-three-fingered creature. Did I miss a chapter,, okay.. maybe a page of my very own book? What have I done to actually deserve this? hahaha... just kidding! Just wanted this to have that sort of overly melodramatic effect.. but really. I ask myself the same question over and over and over again for the past 10yrs. I'm not that insensitive as you probably think,, okay maybe I'm a bit insensitive, self-contained,  naive, and the list goes on. It's not like it's a first for me too. Things like this occasionally.. fine! frequently, if not, most of the time, almost always happens to me.  Deep inside, somewhere inside, I know what's wrong. I know it's somehow my fault,.. but clearly, we must admit that it isn't completely my fault. Things led to the way they are now because I was the one who caused it to happen, and you just LET it happen. You didn't do something about it. But then again, what's there to hang on? I think things turn out for the better. You made choices, I made choices, and luckily both of us choose what's right even if it's not in our favor.

Again, I wonder. Is it really obvious? Was there really something? People around us sensed something. It's not like it's the first, not that it's the second, not even the third. Countless times, people suspected but I just brushed off that thought. Until I myself noticed the change. It may not be a sudden change, but there's that huge gap already. I may be influenced by Anastasia Steel,, missing that sense of security. That minute-long lingering touch. That arm wrap which gets your mind working, thinking what it is. Those puzzling words you always say almost everyday. I miss things the way they were before. Stepping on somebody else's boundary seems fatal yet it gets your heart racing. It's like the feeling you get when you keep on playing with fire even though you know you'll eventually get burned. Apparently, those days were long gone. Glad we're still civil :P My question is still left unanswered: When exactly did it happen?

Stepping Down

Down down down her level... yes! I don't friggin care! I'm sure you'll do the same if you were in my shoes! Fine! Maybe... just maybe... If I brought my phone with me in my room, there's that possibility that I answered that friggin call and agreed.... okay! so I am assuming that the call was from someone I work with, but who couldn't, given the circumstance. But before that....

An Update to what had happened during the first day of the year. . . . . . .
Yes, there's still no product, still encountered tons of customer complains, but the highlight of that day was that I worked for 2 shifts!!! I was the Opener and at the same time closer! Imageyn! all by myself ang drama!

However, good thing our rm told me things which I'd say wasn't really crystal clear but I guess understandable. Maybe my additional hours will be counted after all. I hope so.

The following day which was supposed to be my restday was duty day again. One of mah bosses asked a favor coz she's not feeling well, and nice person as I am of course instantly said the magic word. This time I expected our products to arrive as told by the bosses,.. bottomline: another disappointing day.

Back to the down down down thing. Let's put it this way,.. would you help a person who not only didn't try to help you when you were in need but also secretly wished she's not in your position?!? and is maybe laughing deep inside, okay! so maybe not laughing, she might even felt a bit of sympathy but that's it! Just sympathy when in fact she can do something about it! Maybe a bit of empathy will do,, and by empathy I mean... acting on her own without anybody (of higher authority) telling her what she should do. Okay! so maybe she received a bad news, but HELLOOOOoo!!!!! We've agreed on that even before the opening! That was one of the reasons why the Boss called for a meeting.

Now I've realized that I should put all the things into writing,, you know, just in case everyone inadvertently or intentionally forget.

Happy New Year!!!

2013. Happy New Year! Oh the IRONY!!!!

What a way to END 2012 and START 2013!

My December 31, 2012:

woke up at around 6AM.
arrived at work at around 8:05 only to find out that the key I brought with me wasn't the right one, so I had no choice but to call someone I know who has the right key. Obvious kaayo na bag-o pa xa mata... I owe him one!
closed an area kay gabaha coz ga-leak ang freezer and buntag sayo pa gani customer complain na bcoz naai foul odor and there's nothing I can do about it unless I'm a professional plumber, which of course am not.
Found out na daghan products ang wala,.. at least back-up plan was to buy from a nearby mall/supermarket.
Wanmelyon Customer Complain... ano pa ba ang bago!
Muntik na straight akong duty Opener-Closer!
I thought day off na naku tomorrow kay gpa-pili ko whether I'll work on 31 or 1... yun pala I'll work on both days! Imageyn!!! wtf kaayo!!! Maypag wala ko gipa-pili!!! nagexpect tuloy ko.... nagpa-appointment pa ko ug massage!
Extend na naman ng bongga...
Naluoy si my former RM and nagpahiram ug products....
Kaya pa man nako antoson ang everything..... then... nakasakay naku si BFF ni hatest and also one of my hates....
Ang saveh pah, with matching smile. "nagwork naka? (nod) ako nagschool pa. aha diay ka nagwork? (eyed on my shirt) aii mcdo. Unsa gani imong course? rehas man diay ta finance noh! hahaha... bangko man ko.. di ko ganahan anang mga ing.ana"

I thought I'm past that phase nah! Hindi pa pala! SHIT lang!!! pwede muhilak inxegeda!!! Do I look like I love this job? Do I look like I enjoy my work e.g. handling complains, busing tables, and other stuffs na maka-degrade ug morale?!?! It's not my fault that I'm tooooo fat, toooo ugly, and toooo dull to work sa bank...
Forgot the key so I had to return to the store ASAP kay mag-close nah,, no choice but to get a cab... wanmelyon bayaran...

January 1, 2013... FIRST new year na g.tulugan nako! now that's something I'll definitely never forget. Rest assured that this year is really something.... something TERRIBLE!

Rest of the shift?? It's for me to find out....