Forlorn Day

Wah nai mas loser pa naku!!!

I know over ra man pud ni na drama,... pero di pa japun ko katuo na hapit muabot sa extent na gusto ko muhilak!!! Imagine, naa ko sa jeep then muhilak ra ko kalit..... Even I myself would say na OA najud....

Self pity  maybe..... for the longest time in my life,, nakafeel napud ko ug self pity. How did it happen??

Last night wala ko ka-uban ila ana, gelai, and janna sa SM coz wala ko kapananghid and unfortunately I was left alone.... If only gelai called 5min earlier then nakapananghid unta ko... siiiggghhh.... so I said "ugma nalang" thinking they're free tomorrow..... I promised meow na ubanan xa mag-lunch.... and sssiiiiggghhh!!! I did not anticipate that TODAY is DATING DAY!!!! wah ko na.orient... sabagay,,, why naman ako maoorient dibuh?!? dibuh nga,,, ALONE!!!! ang drama ko for the past 19 yrs... and since I have to make it up to her, I agreed to go thinking na ahh... pagmag.start na dayun xa ug work, I can find other people.... kei accustomed naku na during SOLITARY times naa jud nai makakita naku ALWAYS and so di jud ko mawad.an ug kauban.... I thought this day is no different from any other days na alone ko... but I was WRONG!!! very wrong!!! I did not foresee that times like this would come!!!

Look! so nagtxt ko for possible companions pagka-1pm.... Christina agreed na ubanan ko, even if she's on a date today... with matching "TXT lang"... so I thought ok nah... Meow agreed to meet me at school,... as usual ang forever late na LONER is LATE,, so I thought na naa nai kauban si meow nag.lunch kei ang sabot namu is 12,, I tried my best to make it at 12 pero the earliest jud na maka-abot ko didto is 12:20,,, syempre loser na naman not knowing where MEOW is... buti na lang she said naa pa xa sa bank... so ayan... wait na naman mi... pag.lingkod pa lang naku I saw earl nah -- chitchatted a bit but then he had to go --- alone na naman,... after 1min, I saw cherry (classmate) waiting for flora (classmate) so nag-talk2 napud mi,, till flora came and just as when they're about to go,,, finally niabot na si Meow!!! hooorrraaayyy for today!!

LUNCH....LUNCH....LUNCH.... xempre lunch doesn't last for several hours naman oh.... we only have an hour, maybe less.... so pag-buhbye na ni meow,,, Idk na asa ko puniton.... I texted Christina and she said naa pa xai g.lakaw.... and soooo I walked and walked without knowing where to go,.... my feet brought me to this cake shop na I've been dying to visit so ayun... napa.order nalang ako....

wah nai mas.LOSER pah sa someone who would ORDER herself a BIRTHDAY cake for HER OWN birthday tapos magpa.DEDICATE sa iyang SELF all because she knew wai lain muhatag sa iya and mag.surprise sa iya ug ing.ana but HERSELF!!!! talk about self love!!! xeneng!! FOREVER ALONE T_T Ms. Dex (the owner/baker) was there.... and when asked: "for gift ni xa ma'am" what would I say?? kind of coz it's my gift for myself!! xeneng!!! My BDAY tapos akoi mag.surprise sa other people na nagpabuhat ko ug HAPPY BDAY MYSELF cake for them.... so I said "no"... then the question: any message?? and I said "Happy 20th Bday" a looonngg pause,, she had to break the silence by asking:"name ma'am" and I was left with no choice but to say "rhean. ME" forcing a smile... obvious keu,, she smiled awkwardly just to return my bleak smile.... it pricked hah!! If I know, her mind goes like "LUOYA THIS GIRL UI!!!!" and then the moment I left the cafe they would talk about me and how I ordered a cake as a present for myself!!! urrgghh!!! She then managed to add "ahh.. bday diay nimu rhean. advance :)" the sweetest smile,,, those are the ones you have to watch out for!!

afterwards, the best thing I could do is console MYSELF.... afterall, I have ME, MYSELF, and I naman dibuh.... Sadly, wala pa japun ko kita ug kauban... buti nalang nakita ko si shining jeep which would take me to my most familiar place, HOME.... kaya ayun.... home sweet home.... Cry... cry... hahahaha... joke!! Sayang lang tears ko!!!

SHORT ENCOUNTERS this day::: JEEP moments....

Going downtown:: I saw 3 kids (all boys)... ang isa, ang pinaka-paras,, u know naman how pre-teen boys are,,, has a Xavier ID holder,, so my guess is they're either in 1st yr high school, grade 5 or 6..... The one who asked me "Ate, muagi ni SM?" reminded me of someone.... aaahhh.... someone I decided to forget nah!!! he's a bit chubby,, cute I'd say.... he's likely the teasing-target.... siya man jud ang ga.ulit-uliton  sa duha..... with conversation pa na "si *forgot the name* kay gwapa"... then he agreed "uu. pero stick lang"... "lagi. naai pagka.stick" commented the other one,,,, "si ara (not sure) kay chubby lang"... he replied "cute man si ara" and the other one said "eeeeeiii... crush nimu si ara bah" he was speechless "ngee! nganu?" "eeehh... alangan, nganu hilom kaayo ka pag.naa xa" he replied in defense "hilom ba diay ko? dili ui" "hilom keu ka ui"..... hahahahaha

ganyan ba talaga conversations ng mga guys at that age..... hahahahaha...... plus the kabit2 thing para dili maka-plete..... xempre nice kid si ka-atbang,, the two sat near the driver..... hahaha... wah sila kakabit coz gibadlong.... and pagnaog nila... the paras kid asked the nice kid "nagplete ka"... kala ko dili magplete si nice kid kei ninaog ra xa kalit... pero niadto xa sa driver to personally pay the fare!!! sssooooo nice!!!! and the paras kid said "Banga keu ka!!! sus!!!" but then he ignored him..... aaaahhh.... supah nice,,,, if only I could turn back time.... hahahaha.... no one really knows what the future holds.... suz!! hahaiiiizzz..... my time is up nah..... hahahaha.... pero I'd stick with what I said "It's the NICE/innocent/good ones you have to watch out for!!!!! They can be BRUTAL and nice at the same time!!!!"


Going Home:: this weird guy, probably my age or older, talked to me and said CREEEEPPPYYY stuffs!!! She thought my mom's a teacher and I said "nope" then he described my mom and I said "oo" and he said... oh... I thought she's a teacher... and stuffs like, cesarean ka? rehas tah!... only child ka dibuh? rehas tah! dawbeh paytz keu? and it got creeeppiiieeerrr and creeepppiiieeerrr...... huhuhuhuhu..... just my luck!!!!




FOREVER ALONE!!!! T_T

PS: the cupcake, more specifically the VELVET cupcake, tastes sooooo DELISH!!!!! to order more?? or not to order??

Cruel World

Urrgghh... the frustration of Job hunting....

Actually, di man ko frustrated sa pag.job hunt it's because wala man ko nag.exert ug todo2 effort,,, pero sa ngalan lang na SOME PEOPLE OUT THERE kay naa nai JOB and ako wala pah?!?!? with matching SMILEY FACE pah hah!!!! PAETA!!! Di hamak naman na mas deserve ko the job kaysa u know..... Mao nah ang FRUSTRATING!!!!! pero k thnx bye,,,, di ko type the company eh.... bwahahaha.... plus someone told me not to go down to their level and compare myself with them..... soooo move on na tiii.....,,, guess am not yet ready afterall....

Lord naman.... I'm almost 20!!! No plans in life..... hahaiiizzz.... sabi ko pa sa sarili ko before,,, when I turn 20 and I still have no job, I'll pursue higher education.... Still torn between Law and MBA,,, hahaiiizzz... Divine intervention asan ka na?!?!

Where art thou people when thy need them the most..... Inspiration saan ka na nilagay ni Lord?? Motivation pati ba naman ikaw?? Maski si persistence wala rin.... pano na?!? Tapos bored na bored na talaga ako... well at least am still enjoying life... hahaiiizzz....

Soul searching?? hahahaha.... meron ba ako nun?? soul?? hahahaha.... joke! malamang....

WANTS maging:

1. CFA -- hahahaha.... Too bad jugokernz ko...
2. Lawyer - poor naman ako sa memorization... hahaiiizzz
3. Professional Photographer - hobby lang
4. (frustrated) Writer -- hahaha.. walang talent
5. (frustrated) Artist/Painter -- Labaw na walay potential
6. (frustrated) DJ -- hahaha... sauna siguro pwede pa,, karon.. waz nah... bulol na eh
7. Event Planner/Organizer/Designer -- Kaya ko ba?? NOOOO!!!!
8. Travel Host -- I WISH!!!

Sigh!! Di ko ma.reach dreams koooo..... Nothing but a dream,,,,, when will I wake up?!?!? buhusan nyo na ako ng malamig na tubig with ICE para mahimasmasan pls....



3 MORE CRUCIAL DAYS T_T

W.A.I.T.I.N.G - I.N. - V.A.I.N

Nitukar napud akung sakit!!! urrrggghhh!!!! All thanks to YOU, YOU, YOU, and YOU!!!! hahahaha.... ovah!! fine!! si YOU and YOU lang!!!!!


Curse them all ye nice people!!!! STOP BEING SOOOOOOO NICE!!!!! wait... crash that out!!! BRUTALLY NICE!!!!!



1. Guess "that" means "PEACE" na tayo?? hahahaha.... still without guarantee na we'd say "hi-hello" the next time we meet.... hehehehe.... Unhi lang ko... pramis!! I'd say "hi" back!



2. I'm NOT ASKING!!!! ugghhh!!! Doing things then leave me hanging.... uuurrrgggghhh..... Show off!!!! was getting used to the idea of me on your ignore list .... tapoz...tapoz.... karon napud I'm back to STEP 1!!!! thanks a lot!!!



3. When will I get that friggin call or that sweet "you're HIRED"?!?!


SEE!!! This is what I  am afraid of.... after sunod2 na good things,, sunod2 napud na baaadd things T_T Just my luck!! T_T

12:51 Extremely Happy yet Surprisingly Sad

1. I didn't know it happened to my.... probably my fav person there..... the double duo is gone nah.... sigh!! sad though...

2. If it weren't for my darling friend Janna Vanessa Q. Lagria, am gonna kiss toyota goodbye nah....

3. If it weren't for the implausible law stud we would not be able to apply for DTI

4. How the super englishera/MALDITA girl, turned out to be a not-kikay-friendly-girl pero still englishera.... can't wait na mag.grow-up iyang ever suplado brotha

5. hahahahaha..... hahahahahahahaha...... at isa pang hahahahahahahaha........ ok! enough nah..... It's ovah!!! ;P

SCRIPTED!!!!!!

DAAAAAAFFFFUUUUUUQQQQQQQ!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

Oh well.... moving on....

:3

I don't know... I've come across this after visiting twitter :3 and found this on some random person's tumbler.... I like MONET!!! Both!! hahahaha... the surrealist and the $$$$ hahahaha....

I think I might call it a day.... For the whole day, I had been frustrated,,, like really really frustrated all because of GOOGLE CHROME!!!! I was waiting for the Skip Beat Live Action to load so I can watch it continuously,,, forced to woke up early just to load the effin video and turns out,,, at around 4:00 this afternoon Google chrome has crashed!!!! However, if it weren't for the crash.. I wouldn't have found out that the Skip Beat Live Action Series is on my favorite site, http://www.dramacrazy.net , I just love that site coz videos there load faster..... and Just as when I'm loading episode 4 I forgot what part, maybe 3/6 part.... Google CRASHED again!!!! This day couldn't get any worse!!! However, the good thing about dramacrazy is that when the video is 100% loaded already, it will automatically play the next time you open it.... so no problem with that.... Then,, several minutes ago, before I went to check my facebook, yahoo mail, twitter, and some other sites,,, Google CRASHED again.... somehow the videos aren't working,, already tried changing browser but to no avail, it won't load... *sigh* guess I'll have to try it again tomorrow....

I didn't regret that happening though =P well I still can't deny the fact that I got frustrated.... Until..... I checked my yahoo mail ^_^ there in my inbox, @DUNGEONMASTER replied to one of your Tweets! OMG!! I didn't expect that!!! Christian Siriano never tweeted me back, Taylor Swift never tweeted me back, Britney Spears never tweeted me back.... wait... did I even send them tweets to begin with?!? hhhmmm.... but I'm 100% sure @CSiriano never tweeted me back.... and here!!! TIM tweeted me back =P far fetched!!!! Ok!! so maybe he's not that famous... but still.... He gave a reply :3!!!! aaawwww.....

Why things led to that..... This morning around 10am, while I was waiting for the series to load, it has been my morning routine to eat BRUNCH around that time and watch some programs,, and it so happens that this summer, I fancy watching star world.... so during mornings, I watch Todays, How I met your mother or Friends with benefits or new girl (depending what day it is), followed by BEAUTY & THE GEEK (now on its 2nd season), then America's Next Top Model, finally at around 11am K-POP Star Hunt.... and maybe changing channels during advertisement.... The episode this morning was my fav.. the TRANSFORMATION of the geeks!! From geek to sheek as one of the beauties said.... I thought Daniel will have the biggest transformation... although I already know he's got the looks beneath all those stuffs.... and I think he knows that too coz clearly he had been a player even before the make-over..... But Tim's transformation did blew me away!!! COMPLETELY!!!

After the 1sh crash and while the the vids are loading, I decided to watch some TV and I found another episode of Beauty and The Geek..... I only Then just before they were eliminated, Tim cried coz of a misunderstanding with Kara.... It showed it's for real.... and idk... somehow he's one of my fav,,, along with Michael and Daniel (if not for his actions)....

Then I googled what happened to Tim,, and found his blogger and a twitter account which was soooo updated... so I followed him on twitter and nonchalantly tweeted: @DUNGEONMASTER is soooooo AWESOME!!!! #jawdrop.... then the rest is already written above....

FOOTNOTES::

1. 101 ways to leave a game show ----> is the best game show yet!!!

2. replied to Tim's Tweet (if it was really him who replied... hope so)

3. IPAD, Netbook, Kindle, or Nook??????

4. Finish Extravagant Challence a.k.a. Skip Beat Live Action

5. @MIKEWELLSAuthor, a rising author, is following me on twitter

6. @PaoloCoehlo is also following me on twitter

7. Can't find Madeleine Wickham's a.k.a. Sophie Kinsella nor Jahnna Beecham a.k.a Jahnna's N. Malcolm twitter

8. Will buy some stuffs tomorrow for my mom's bday.... and a ROUTER!!!!

9. Must read BOOKS!!!!!!

10. GET SOME SLEEP!!!!!

I've got your number

Done reading Sophie Kinsella's I've got your number....

Possibly the book that gave me 2nights of nightmares.... hahaha... just kidding! Although that dream is still a mystery.... Oooppsss... I meant NIGHTMARE!!!! This book landed on my Top 3 list!!! Next to: Jahnna N. Malcom's Mixed Messages and Cecilia Ahern's Where Rainbows End..... OMG!!! I totally forgot all about Paolo Coehlo's BRIDA!!!

The book is brilliant!!! I mean, I know Sam and Poppy will end up together..... It would have been better though if Magnus did fight for her instead of lying, cheating, and having the jits... hahaha..... I'm usually into tearjerker ending not much into the happy-ending stories... Well I can tolerate semi-happy-endings... u know, the mixed emotions ending..... A perfect example would be "If u could see me now" still by Sophie Kinsella... It ended quite tragically, having the imaginary friend/lover disappear... though I love the movie "Sundays at Tifanny's" which had a not-so-close plot but more of my kind of story....

I have to admit, I love the twists.... especially the gold twisted ring thing.... well it somehow popped into my mind while reading,,, and while I was reading I was like "Pls... noo.... nooo... not a ring from his tag party" and YES! it was!!! sucks!! then the whole wedding thing... didn't expect Sam to phone Poppy's wedding planner and text everyone..... The ending was just,, must admit,, typical.. yet it had a twist... something that made it not so typical which I can't seem to figure out what,, maybe the way she writes,, or because of the phone.... and I find the "want some coffee?" part totally charming!! And oh... totally love how she played with Wanda's character....

Of course it does not keep me from picturing something what I'd like to happen.... like say for example.... I thought since SAM cannot contact Poppy anymore he'll sweep her off her feet at the wedding by "STOP THIS F*CKING WEDDING!!!! POPPY DON'T MARRY HIM!!! YOU DESERVE FAR BETTER!!!!" and will have this looooooooonnnnggg speech about how they met and how he made her feel and can't stop thinking about her and there goes the BIG CONFESSION : "POPPY I LOVE YOU!!!!" then the 200 people will be confused, mortified, happy... whatever.... then poppy will say "I'm sorry MAGNUS.... SAM I LOVE YOU!!!" then the cliche hugging and carrying and twirling and kissing.... then her two brothers will work out the plan... sam and poppy will take the train to paris and live happily ever after!!! hahahaha..... ok! so much for me not wanting happy endings... idk... but there's something about the heroine which made me want to want a happy ending for her....

"Having a big brain is like having a big liver or a big nose. Why do you feel insecure? What if he had a huge lower intestine? Would you feel insecure then?”

“Lover? I don’t know. I don’t know if she loves me. I don’t know if I love her.All I can say is, she’s the one I think about. All the time she's the voice I want to hear. She's the face I hope to see. and I'll be standing outside the church"

"XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX"

":)"

"HI" -----> Apparently were the shortest words,, or not even words... but had the deepest and greatest impact!!! Sometimes words just aren't enough for certain situations!!! the "xxxxxx" the ":)" and "HI" says it all ^_^

"CUP OF COFFEE??" one of my fave too... WILL SOMEONE OFFER ME SOME COFFEE!!!!!!! hahahahahaha

The MAGIC of TIME

This is a PERFECT example of the Ugly duckling turned into a Gorgeous looking swan in human form. That's just how life works... you might not know that your geeky duck seatmate whom you always ridicule way back would turn out to be a top model in the future! The joke's on you!!!

or...or... the geeky duck would turn out to be your gorgeous stiff BOSS!!! How's that?!? and you'll spend your work-life being tormented by your used to be duck boss!!!

or...or... the ugly duckling who used to be your admirer/stalker until you acridly turned him/her down suddenly turn to a charming casanova or a ruthless heartbreaker....

there goes my blustering imagination again....

However, beauty is indeed just skin deep,, it will wear-off sooner or later.... let's see how he'll look like when he's 50! hahahahaha...

So... Pick the DUCKLINGS while they're still young coz tendency is that,,,... ducks and swans will switch in the near future!!! TRUE STORY!!!! Learned that the hard way... But like everything else,, there's always an exception.... you can never tell =p

Take the RISK!!! Hang out with and be a NOBODY today and you'll definitely be and have SOMEBODY in the FUTURE!!!! hahahaha....

and this folks is a complete NONSENSE!!!!! *bow* walay lingaw lamang!!

Living the dream!!! Hahaha…. Not really, but at least…. I finally finished something I longed to do for over a year…. Yep! MOVIES and of course read books….

Finished “Falling for you” by Jill Mansell….

“Do you still not see? It’s because there’s only been one girl I’ve wanted to settle down with, and she wasn’t interested in me. She turned me down.” He paused. “So I did the next best thing and became her best friend instead. Well, pretended to be her best friend.” -Jake Harvey

The story was far more complicated than I thought it was…. First, I thought it was a common love story, you know, star-crossed lovers but will definitely have a happy ending… Well, I was right about the ending part but never expected ALL of them.. I mean, there were what? 8 love stories sewn together and add the affairs and some complications…. There’s Maddy-Kerr, Kate-Dexter, Juliet-Jake, Estell-Oliver, Marcell - Maddy&Jake’s Father & the new dude I forgot the name, the ever adorable Sophie-Tiff and of course who would have thought Nuala-Den, even the two dogs Bean-Norris…… You won’t expect a small town to have such bizarre stories….

Hhhmmmm…. What shall I pick next??

First...... [ / ]

As they say,,, there's always the first time....

It was the first company to have called me after god-knows-how-many companies I have submitted my resume......

Imagine, I was in the middle of the street... ok.. at an alley outside Ororama while I took that friggin call which was basically my interview already... can you believe that! It was totally unexpected!!! And god knows my impromptu communication skill is slowly deteriorating....

I may have sounded a little too desperate... ok... VERY desperate! but what can I do?!? I was just being honest.... no harm in that... wait! there is!!! I won't be getting THAT job!!!! How can I forget that it's about impressing, exaggerating, and manipulating the truth or saying just the half-truth,,, not about pure honesty! They won't even know you're lying!!! This isn't heaven yet!!! u know, when u die there's this grande golden gate and the infamous San Pedro waiting for you somewhere there, then before you could enter "heaven" or what lies beyond that golden gate you have to look-back and tell him, wait... prove rather, that you should be there in HEAVEN and not on the opposite side (the dark, hot part... although it might be fun in there... hahaha... who knows right).... aaahhh.... ok! you get my point... back to the interview again...

There are a few things I've learned from that experience which I'm about to share with you....

First and the most important thing you should know before having an interview is:

"KNOW ABOUT THE COMPANY" ----- It's basically the first rule....

Second: Flaunt your skills/achievements/talents/whatsoever!!! coz whatever you say, they'll believe you for sure... Trust me! It's impressing them that counts.... But if u have none,, well, just be ready to improvise.... I'm sure there is something, you just have to figure it out=)

Third: Be ready to be bombarded with TONS of questions....

Some Questions and Possible Answers I should keep in mind always:

1. Why Finance?

I chose Finance since it is applicable in our everyday life. Finance is a combination of Accounting and Economics. It is considering all factors and putting data together to come up with the best possible solution or decision. It's not just numbers or data alone,, it's like life... everything counts and it doesn't stop there..... it's a continuous process since we are always dealing with change....

2. Why should we hire you?

Because I am the person you're looking for. With my knowledge and skills, I will become an asset to your company. More so because I am flexible and can adapt to change easily

3. Favorite finance subjects: and can you tell us something about it?

Controllership and subject ni ma'am saguing... hahahaha.... still need to reread my notes.... dang!

4. Why do you want to work in our company?

Because It is where my area of expertise lies where I can apply what I have learned and at the same time enhance my skills. Working in your company is my desired job as well

5. What are your strengths?

(should review my resume for that...)

6. Tell me something about your org, your position, and what you have done...

7. What is your edge among others?

5-7 are some of the questions I still have to work on with....

Regardless, I thank Deutsche for the great opportunity and for the things they have taught me =)