Doublemint anxiety

wheew! I can't hardly remember the time I wrote an entry to my blog. I got busy with my sched and everything, and oh! 2nd sem will start the day after tomorrow. ugh! I can't wait! :) (I'm being sarcastic).

Anyways, a lot of things are going on in my mind right now. ok! One, will be the doublemint. yes I know that it isn't much of a deal but heck! yeah! It is a deal for me, although not major. You see, I spent 100PHP of load just for that (including the load w/c had been taken by my mobile service provider). ugh! screw that service provider! *They deserve to be trialed in court.* So let's get back to the doublemint. The doublemint was a contest, uh... not really a contest, but more like a promo. It's a promo in multiply.

Joining in the said promo is as easy as clapping your hands, but getting in the promo is another story. All you have to do is upload any picture that gets you closer to confidence, then write a short write-up explaining why it gets you closer to confidence. See, I've told you it's easy. However, there is no guarantee your entry will be valid and you have to wait for weeks, if you're not that lucky maybe a month, for your entry to be published. But don't worry, if your entry is valid you'll recieve a doublemint package worth 3,000PHP. ok! enough with this explaining.

So they've tried to call me thrice, however my phone was in a silent mode as usual so I didn't got the call. Then I recieved an e-mail telling me to call a certain number. ang gaga naman nagpa.load as soon as I got the mail. I can't contact the number they've given me, so instead, I used the number who called me. After 10 calls (yep. I'm not kidding, 10 call attempts that lasts for 15minutes), somebody picked up.

Me: Hello
Other Line (O.L): Yes. kanina kpa?
Me: uhm. di naman maxado
OL: ah. kasi...
Me: uhm... (I only have 50PHP worth of loads.. so mabilisan).... Is this the doublemint?
OL: come again?
Me: doublemint contest,,, uhm,,, promo
OL: I'm sorry, BBDO po ito
Me: BBDO??? (BDO??? what did they want from me)
OL: Opo. Advertising agency
Me: uhm... sorry wrong number (hahahaha..... taranta maxado)

Darn! I forgot to ask why'd they call me yesterday and 5 days ago. What do they want from me?
oh well... better call them again... this time, I'll use my strict tone.

....... after 3hours of nonstop call attempt, I'm not kidding! Imagine how many call attempts did I made....

OL: hello
Me: uhm... hello, can I ask why'd you call me yesterday and 5 days ago?
OL: I'm sorry, what?
Me: Why'd you call me yesterday and 5 days ago
OL: Name po?
Me: Rhean
OL: ai sorry! wrong number!....
(tooot....tooot....toooot...)

ganun?!?! So naubos 50PHP na load q with just 2 calls. anywayz, I did everything I could to make a contact and luckily, they've called me again after weeks of waiting. But before that, I was really losing hope, I don't care about that stupid promo anymore. Then, here they are, calling me again. However, I saw that the call was 5 minutes ago. So I hurried to buy some load and call them back again...

ME: Hello
OL: Yes. Hello?
ME: ask lang po kung bakit kayo tumawag a few minutes ago
OL: Who's this please?
ME: rhean
OL: Magnaye?
Me: opo
OL: ugh... this is rhauss lagos from doublemint closer to confidence at multiply... this is regarding your verification process
Me: yes?
OL: How old are you?
Me: uhm.... (should I lie???)... 17... (so I told him the truth! Hate myself!)
OL: ah... ok... so the mechanics said that it is open to citizens of the philippines 18y/o and above... bla..bla...bla..
Me: Pero me.guardian naman po
OL: alam ko! (antipatikang bakla toh ah) Pano ka naman napunta sa mundong toh kung wala diba?! So meron nga...
Me: uh....
OL: so listen... all you have to do is send 2 valid ID's with picture to the mail then a written consent by your parent to join this contest.
Me: ah... ok... (my god! I only have 1 school ID)...
OL: Now, the contest is just until tomorrow.
Me: Yep
OL: Yun lang
Me: Ok. thanks
...........HANG....... toot....

Gggggrrrr.... kainis na bakla!!! But anywayz, the conversation goes something like that. I can't remember every details ok! so I immediately sent what he wanted. Now, I am stuck here writing my thoughts, with no idea if I'll get that doublemint or what.

SCREW them!!! Dammit!!! Stupid GAY (RL)!!! Stupid promo that wasted my time, effort, and money!!!! Gggggrrrr..... Stupid!!!

Insecurities

Yep! Let's face it, Life is unfortunately unfair. Some people get to live on a dream-like lifestyle while others are bearing to live on the total opposite. It's unfair, isn't it? Yes. indeed it is, but other than that, I find it frustrating when those "dream" people complain much than the "normal" one's (I won't call them unfortunate though). Even with what they already have now and what they are experiencing, they still complain. I know that they too encounter some difficulties and had some tough times too but I bet it isn't that tough compared to others, and I mean a LOT! What goes on inside my head is like... "Hey! Stop complaining! you should be thankful instead! Wanna try my Life? Let's Trade!" Like the TV show "Try My Life." Let me cite an example, the common misunderstanding on a parent-child relationship is work-school. So on one ep. on "Try My Life" or I should call it the "SWITCH." The parent went to school and do school stuffs while the child went at work. In the end, both of them gave up and wanted their life back. hah! that's what im talking about! Don't complain! But hey! on the other hand, what can you do? You were born to be like that. Some said its already written. and that... That's what you called LUCK! Lucky for you to be picked with that lifestyle. So minimized the complaining! It really gets me down when people like that complains, and my mind would went like "If u think you're unfortunate, then what do you think of mine? Devastating!" However, there is also a saying that you make your own FATE, but how can you make your own when you lack resources. (so be resourceful---> lol) Still, in order to get that, you need a miracle and its called a miracle because it is impossible. So tell me, if I can choose my future and you still say nothing is impossible, then can I be Crown Princess Victoria (Royal Family in Sweden). Well, we already know the answer to that, a big NO! and can NEVER BE! Obviously since I'm not from the Royal Family, my blood isn't Blue (not in an atenean way). hahaha! So still, I believed our fate is already written and can only be expounded within boundaries. Nothing we could do but to admire someone else's lifestyle secretly and wished that it could be ours, maybe in our next life. hahahaha. Libre Naman Mangarap!

PREOCCUPATION as of the moment

Ok. I'm just waiting for the right hour, and to be exact... I still have 7 more hours to go. Its like i'm waiting for a death sentence or something... haha! But its like a battle between, I dunno how should I say this, uhm...

"A MATTER BETWEEN LIFE and ANOTHER LIFE" its like a crossroad.

Ok. First of all, I'll be having a VACATION.... probably my only vacation in college for the summer coz im planning to take up summer the following years. And probably my LONGEST and also "THE EXPERIENCE"

The thing is, so I'll discuss first the first ROAD, my father left me a bargain and my mom too. Aside from having a ROAD TRIP again to mindoro, we'll also go all the way to Baguio, then on our way back, my father would left me at Pangasinan (on my aunt and grandmother on my mothers side); then on the 23rd or something, my mom would fetch me there. hah! can you believe that?!? By myself for like a MONTH!!! This is where I get to prove them wrong, that I can already be ALONE!!! ugh! But what else can I do about it, I'm already enrolled at a university here, so probably I'll no longer get to transfer schools.


The NEXT road would be If I stay here.
1.) I get to attend an ACTUAL DEBUT, the traditional one, the COTILLION. ugh! its supposed to be the 1st debut I could ever attend to!

2.) I'll be able to attend on one of my closest friends debut. And maybe another sleepover

3.) I get to know my grades... huhuhuhu! hope I didn't failed

4.) I could have summer class in order for me not to be an irregular next sem.

5.) I could spend a lot of time going out with my friends.


Ugh! what shall I choose?? I really wanted to attend the party, but I also wanted to have a vacation. oh! and btw, I'm having this headache and a light fever, might be the effect of my sinus. Is this a sign?!? but anyways, I'll get the invitation today at around 10:30, in case I'd think of a nice plan that I would get to have two... hahaha! best of both worlds!


Another thing, I had this weird DREAM, probably what they call a "deijavu." Its like I've dreamed on whats gonna happen the rest of the day, which is definitely COULD happen if it weren't for that dream. Like, I was given a second chance to correct everything.

Well, I guess... SEE U NEXT MONTH!!! My BURTHDEI!!!!

The Notebook!!!

Happy Endings???? Maybe,,,,,

I've heard much about "the notebook" and since I considered it as an "oldies" I didn't have that much interest about it. I don't like oldies that much, although there are some exceptions, depends on the story. haha...

During the first scenes, I was captivated by the scenery. A scene from "a lake house" as the sun sets over the horizon, In short nice ang view. I wanted to paint the scenery, lol... seriously I'm not just imitating the heroine in the movie, I like paintings!!! though, If I paint it... Poor Image, ruined by my underdeveloped skills, tsk3. haha....

At the middle of the movie, I got the overview of the whole story already. C'mon, we couldn't deny the fact that the ending was very predictable. I did sense that the old man was narrating HIS/ THEIR story to the old woman, so perhaps a Happy ending indeed! but then again, the story still continued, so that leaves the ending with the hero / heroine dying. lol... The story was very good indeed but very predictable. Furthermore, I've seen movies that have almost exactly the same story, or yet the same plot. However, even though the ending was very predictable, the director has his own way of directing the film. I can't described the feeling while watching the film, there's essence in every action, in every scenes there's thrill, especially near the ending. Basta! Lahi ra jud! I'd say that this film was even better compared to twilight. However, I can't compare the two books since I haven't read "the notebook."

The notebook, on my opinion, shows more on the different characteristics of LOVE, whatever you want to call it.... basta more on LOVE:

1.) Fate - No matter how far your distances may be, even if you two would take different directions, but if you two were meant for each other (MFEO) you'll still end up together. Fate will have its way!!

2.) True Love Waits - Even if there was no sign from each other, even if they've already moved on, but still they both hold on to that small hope that someday their paths would cross again. lol... i'm too far away from the point nah.... See, the guy waited for the girl even though each day he is losing his hope, and he is willing to wait even if it takes FOREVER. While the girl waited also for the guy, by being a volunteered nurse, hoping to cross path with the guy.

3.) Promises - The story proves the quotation : "Promises are meant to be broken" WRONG!! The guy kept all his promises!!

4.) 1st love never dies - really?? lol.... It never dies, It only FADES!!!! But sources said : Whenever you see that person again, the feelings would come back like bullets that were hitting you hard.

5.) Love can make miracles Happen - wala lng.... quotation sa film! hahahaha

6.) You don't have to be OLD (literally) to understand what LOVE is.

7.) If you love the Person, you will Love him/her FOREVER and EVER. Especially during Tough

Times, and will never leave his/her side.

8.) If you love the person you will accept him/her for who he/she is.

9.) Love sometimes happen during the most unexpected time.

10.) ???? uh??? many to mention.... lol... actually, i'm out of words.

New Year + Christmas

New year + Christmas = BORING!!!!


Yep! This year was the most boring christmas ever as far as I can remember; and an indifferent new year.

I said to myself that I would keep this blog as condense as possible....

I've scanned some of my post last year and see for myself what have I accomplished, yet unfortunately my new year post was deleted and it said that it was due to changing my blog layout.... I wonder what have I written there last year.

THINGS TO BE THANKFUL LAST YEAR:

1.) Graduated!!!
2.) an indifferent year, yet I can consider it as a good year... well, at least better than worse...
3.) Seen my "lolo" even for the last time
4.) Experience with my pulpol
5.) acquired new gadgets!!!
6.) friendship recovered...
7.) more...

DOWNFALL LAST YEAR:

1.) I failed!!
2.) my lolo died
3.) My BLOG!!!! --> about the google and all
4.) I forgot...

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION:

1.) Do better with my studdies --> i'm in the point of giving up (shift)
2.) Not expecting anything!!!! ASSUMING for short!!!
3.) Move on....
4.) Let go...
5.) Its not a solution to throw something away to avoid something because it still stays in the mind... I figured out, all I have to do is accept and let go to forget.....



Pahabol lng (complexed personality) : I was about to let go again and already made up my mind, yet there's always an event occuring when my decision is final. Are those event suppose to happen to keep me holding from what i presume? or Im only the one giving meaning to those events because no matter how much good I lie to myself I still can't deny the fact that deep inside me I still cling to that small possibility?