Christmas Wishlist

33 more days and it's CHRISTMAS... No wonder people are so hyped up that they already have their own Christmas wishlist... If you ask me "what do you want for Christmas?' I can't give you an answer in 5 seconds. Really... What do I want?

This time last year I had my eyes on a general PLANNER,,, of course I don't need that one anymore. I don't have a hectic sched anymore, there's nothing to look forward now; no special events that I should be aware of and must prepare for, no must do's and must go's... boy! Do I still have a life? Surprisingly yes! Matter of fact I do! It's a typical-worker-who-kind-of-doesn't-like-her-job life. Although some say that I should be grateful and that I am fortunate enough to have this job. But then again, I keep hearing side comments.. so I don't know which side to believe in. I'd say 50-50! But I guess those cynical people are just being polite and they're just saying stuff to ameliorate this feeling. Fortunately, it's still working..

HAHAHA.... I've realized that I'm writing about my wishlist one moment and then found myself whining stuffs about my job! gawsh! Why does it seems like everything I do relates to my job? Is it the root cause of my bitterness? hahaha... maybe! LOL... I'm just hoping this pays (not monetarily) well in the future....

Back to my wishlist.... I can't really wish for anything but have a job I love,, which of course, as we all know, is impossible this time.... maybe in 2 years time.

little things I want.... hmmm... go figure xp

If you really know me,, you should also know the things I want... but don't worry,,, I appreciate small things as long as it's from the <3 ....="...." and="and" aside="aside" br="br" cheeziness="cheeziness" counts="counts" it="it" matters.="matters." naks="naks" really="really" s="s" that="that" the="the" thought="thought">
NOTE:: Something that will really remind me of you (the giver)... naks!

It's a plus if it's a living object xp... Nonetheless, I'm easy to please... ahhww,,, on second thought, it depends on the sincerity of the act and how it was delivered... choz!


GOODLUCK!!! XD


Hope to receive something this year..... naks! hahahaha.... from the 

STUCK

stack? stock? HAHAHAHA..... I can't help but share this, I must say, a hell of an experience which had me wondering (wandering?) HAHAHAHA.... ok! seriously! I must stop, else I might confuse this teeny tiny brain of mine and, without a doubt, end up like... eeerrr... them.... as I was entering something on some programmed application, I asked what should I write? and she said "absorbed" so I did what a person with an average intelligence quotient would do and wrote "absorbed"... then she confidently corrected me saying "U ma'am.. absorbed" which got this tiny little think tank of mine to do its usual routine: debate with itself internally.... A part of it is now questioning both of my ears if they have heard it correctly or did she meant absurd-- which was far fetched! plus can I write absurd there? the absurd context won't fit upon using the said program,, although now that I look at it in a wider scope and see that situation as a whole,, it's the best word there is in the English (Merriam or Webster or Oxford or whatever) dictionary that could exactly describe what just happened. It's as if "absurd" was created to have a word that could perfectly define and convey that moment. But that's another story... Now since she insisted the "U" part with utmost conviction, and since I am her student at the moment, I listened to the part of my brain which says "maybe it was their TERM,,, you know how different people from different working environments have different terms right? and looking back at the TRANS-LITE incident, which I previously thought as TRANS LIGHT " and so I keyed in "ABSURBED" with no questions asked... What?!? Can't blame me!

1. after having that thought that it's their own TERM..
2. My working hours ended 3 hours ago, not to mention we don't have overtime pay!
3. I want to get this thing over and done with so I could go HOME nah... ASAP


Then, upon writing my shift report, I noticed that she used "absurbed" (it looks like "suburb" hahaha) once again, but the letter U had been encircled and a small o was written just below it using a different marking pen. So it was really indeed ABSORBED!!!! HAHAHAHAHA..... MUST READ MORE!!!!


Anyway,, taas au ang intro, but that's not the reason why this entry is entitled STUCK... 4 months.... I've been working in THIS friggin company for FOUR ignominiously arduous months! I've been meaning to hand over that letter dated a month ago but I guess I just can't find the courage to do so. Now that I'm back from my First Ever Class which was Basic Shift Management held in Microtel, Davao City, I guess I can say I am OFFICIALLY STUCK!!!!


PWEDE FAST FORWARD to 2014!!!! I swear! Advanced Shift Management will be my last class in this friggin company!! I am not gonna take up RLP nor the class after that... although both seem surprisingly tempting,, especially the class after RLP which, if I'm not mistaken, will be at Australia or it comes with a TRIP to anywhere... oh well! I can do that without being attached to this comp! 2 yrs is enough!

13th

I've been debating with myself over this matter for as long as I can remember. I was never into this job even from the beginning,, OJE pa lang. OJE pa lang gyud, I know that this was not my thing. Unfortunately, I passed the OJE even though I was late during that 2-day-evaluation, and that's one of the factors why I accepted this job and chosen it over 2 other opportunities,, make that three, including the workshop --- oohh... don't make me start blabbing about the workshop--- moving on... yeah,, well, there were several instances which made me say "I've had enough! I quit!" then at the end of the day... "but then again...." and just when I was about to doze off "ok! I can't keep on doing these things for 2 more years"... it's a never ending debate until I've settled on a choice. Either a firm choice, which I doubt will happen, or a no turning back action, which is obviously connected with the title of this entry....

There were signs presented this day to help me with my decision:
1. In the Manager's Log book, GY manager wrote something about someone submitting ze controversial letter,,.. The book did not mention any names,, LOL
2. I got an email from DTI stating that I passed that one hell of a technical exam! and that I have another oral interview on Friday,, Bad news, I have a duty on that day.. Good News, No worries for the swap... Bad News, I'm giving up "no dragon day" and must encounter face-to-face with ze mythical and most anticipated DRAGON!!!
3. Despite having a very very usual bad day (although it was worse),, people checked up on me saying "Okay ra ka ma'am? ayaw pa apekto ma'am! sagdi sila ui! ayaw ka.stress" simple words that meant a lot and surprisingly made a deep impact... Plus, "kasab.i ma'am! buotan ra man sad kaayo ka! awata si *someone na di ko feel coz ang iyang aura is di masabtan*" naks! diay?!? okay! I'm minimizing my usage of annoying (to some) words....


aaahhh.... so which is which? To pursue, continue, and in a hope that someday I'll like what I am doing.... or take that RISK!!! aaaahhh >.<


The truth is... I'm still UNDECIDED!!!!