Make-Believe

I don't know why the movie Arthur made an impact. I just watched it a few hours ago on some cable channel I'm not disclosing the name coz for one, they're not paying me, rather it's the other way around,, and two, coz I feel like being mysterious today, although I think this doesn't count. Maybe for some reason I think it's because the lady protagonist in the movie is a frustrated writer (if you know what I mean) and then Arthur told her to chase her dream, something like quit your job and focus on this (referring to her manuscript).. and she did... eventually, she published the children's book and the acknowledgement or dedication says "to Arthur, for teaching me to believe in make-believe again" something like that. pppffftt!! I wish I was a kid again,, getting what I want was relatively effortless back then. If it's that easy to chase dreams then I'm supposed to be THERE today! Not HERE!!! Although this was my choice... at least on the bright side, I have proven that I do have a talent in writing.

Why do I love writing? It's because I can temporarily escape from the real world through writing. Anything I want to happen can happen here. I can create fictitious people, make phantasmagorical things happen, and nobody can dictate nor stop me because this is my story. It might be just an illusion, but this introspective world is what keeps me going. Through this, I can still hang on to things. LOL. Just saying things to have exaggerated melodramatic effect. What? People always buy those things!

A friend once told me to keep on writing not because I have to but because I want to. Writing may not be my job, but that doesn't stop me from doing what I love. So what if I don't get paid for my prodigious creations, so what if it's never going to be a major motion picture, so what if only a few or no one will be able to read my stories,,.. FOR NOW!!! Thus, I must not stop! Someday..... I'll quote a saying I got from a famous animation movie  "If you want it, you will it.. if you will it, it will be yours!!"

As for my work,, 1month and still nowhere close to liking what I'm doing. I've sacrificed things just for this?!? I have even sacrificed my DREAM CAREER when it was right at my fingertips already!!!! I am surely INSANE!!!! The turn of events this week made me think that this is just PLAIN WRONG!! However, I am afraid that if I submit a specific letter, I don't know what's going to happen... I am still taking that test! It's future Rhean's problem if I pass that effin test!



~Them all ye brutally nice people!!!~