POST NO BILL

What?!? Okay. You caught me,, and yes the title has nothing to do with the content of this post. I just feel like posting something, and "post no bill" just popped in! One of these days I'll write this on some random wall, that way if ever I'll get caught they can't punish me coz I'm not violating any rules and they don't consider it as vandalizing, do they? Wonder where I've read this one. I don't really know what to name this post, as you can see.. well, not literally see,  but a lot of things are running in my mind right now. Things I can't express with words alone.... nah! Actually, it's just some random typical things.

I haven't updated my blog in a while so I thought I might write another entry.... hmmm... what should I write?

Random things that keeps on popping::::

Random thing #1:
Store was closed for 3 days. We had a sprinkler test and luckily, I was the first blood. I don't want to dwell on it any longer. What's been done is done.

Random thing #2:
Define A-W-K-W-A-R-D! Okay! so there was no awkwardness DURING the incident,,, but the after effect?!?!? LIKE HELLO!!!!! How would you describe a situation wherein you haven't seen someone for the longest time... like say, almost 9 yrs. Well, I think I might have seen him around school during college, but during that time there's no Hi/Hello... not even the slightest bit of recognition from both parties. But today! Yes! Today! I don't really know what's with this day that brought us to uh.... react that way! perhaps it was due to whatever impulse there was. Was it the stare and that temporary electrifying moment which resulted to the "wave"? That I don't know. All I know is that it's as if time is of no essence. As if it's our everyday thing. I wonder when's our next fateful encounter? Hoping it's still CASUAL.

Random thing #3:
First and foremost, it's not like it's a first that someone wrote something about you on some random website. Okay! So I think I might have decided long ago to never write anything about you,,, but thoughts are thoughts and actions are actions. What we think may be different from what we say and what we do. Fine! Guess I'm just making some lame excuses. What's there to write anyway! hahahaha... I know! I'm not making any sense here,, but do we really need to make sense all the time? I think the answer you're looking for is NO. Yes? No! What I just wanted to say is that I DON'T KNOW!!!! Actually I wanted to scream that straight to your face, not that I actually know how to scream,, so I've come to a conclusion to write-- which (just in case you don't know yet) I do better than screaming-- about it. I don't know what happened along the way! Last time I checked, my eyes were both functional. How did it happen? How did we became like this? Really? Have I been abducted and my memory got erased by the green-big-eyed-three-fingered creature. Did I miss a chapter,, okay.. maybe a page of my very own book? What have I done to actually deserve this? hahaha... just kidding! Just wanted this to have that sort of overly melodramatic effect.. but really. I ask myself the same question over and over and over again for the past 10yrs. I'm not that insensitive as you probably think,, okay maybe I'm a bit insensitive, self-contained,  naive, and the list goes on. It's not like it's a first for me too. Things like this occasionally.. fine! frequently, if not, most of the time, almost always happens to me.  Deep inside, somewhere inside, I know what's wrong. I know it's somehow my fault,.. but clearly, we must admit that it isn't completely my fault. Things led to the way they are now because I was the one who caused it to happen, and you just LET it happen. You didn't do something about it. But then again, what's there to hang on? I think things turn out for the better. You made choices, I made choices, and luckily both of us choose what's right even if it's not in our favor.

Again, I wonder. Is it really obvious? Was there really something? People around us sensed something. It's not like it's the first, not that it's the second, not even the third. Countless times, people suspected but I just brushed off that thought. Until I myself noticed the change. It may not be a sudden change, but there's that huge gap already. I may be influenced by Anastasia Steel,, missing that sense of security. That minute-long lingering touch. That arm wrap which gets your mind working, thinking what it is. Those puzzling words you always say almost everyday. I miss things the way they were before. Stepping on somebody else's boundary seems fatal yet it gets your heart racing. It's like the feeling you get when you keep on playing with fire even though you know you'll eventually get burned. Apparently, those days were long gone. Glad we're still civil :P My question is still left unanswered: When exactly did it happen?