Insecurities

Yep! Let's face it, Life is unfortunately unfair. Some people get to live on a dream-like lifestyle while others are bearing to live on the total opposite. It's unfair, isn't it? Yes. indeed it is, but other than that, I find it frustrating when those "dream" people complain much than the "normal" one's (I won't call them unfortunate though). Even with what they already have now and what they are experiencing, they still complain. I know that they too encounter some difficulties and had some tough times too but I bet it isn't that tough compared to others, and I mean a LOT! What goes on inside my head is like... "Hey! Stop complaining! you should be thankful instead! Wanna try my Life? Let's Trade!" Like the TV show "Try My Life." Let me cite an example, the common misunderstanding on a parent-child relationship is work-school. So on one ep. on "Try My Life" or I should call it the "SWITCH." The parent went to school and do school stuffs while the child went at work. In the end, both of them gave up and wanted their life back. hah! that's what im talking about! Don't complain! But hey! on the other hand, what can you do? You were born to be like that. Some said its already written. and that... That's what you called LUCK! Lucky for you to be picked with that lifestyle. So minimized the complaining! It really gets me down when people like that complains, and my mind would went like "If u think you're unfortunate, then what do you think of mine? Devastating!" However, there is also a saying that you make your own FATE, but how can you make your own when you lack resources. (so be resourceful---> lol) Still, in order to get that, you need a miracle and its called a miracle because it is impossible. So tell me, if I can choose my future and you still say nothing is impossible, then can I be Crown Princess Victoria (Royal Family in Sweden). Well, we already know the answer to that, a big NO! and can NEVER BE! Obviously since I'm not from the Royal Family, my blood isn't Blue (not in an atenean way). hahaha! So still, I believed our fate is already written and can only be expounded within boundaries. Nothing we could do but to admire someone else's lifestyle secretly and wished that it could be ours, maybe in our next life. hahahaha. Libre Naman Mangarap!

PREOCCUPATION as of the moment

Ok. I'm just waiting for the right hour, and to be exact... I still have 7 more hours to go. Its like i'm waiting for a death sentence or something... haha! But its like a battle between, I dunno how should I say this, uhm...

"A MATTER BETWEEN LIFE and ANOTHER LIFE" its like a crossroad.

Ok. First of all, I'll be having a VACATION.... probably my only vacation in college for the summer coz im planning to take up summer the following years. And probably my LONGEST and also "THE EXPERIENCE"

The thing is, so I'll discuss first the first ROAD, my father left me a bargain and my mom too. Aside from having a ROAD TRIP again to mindoro, we'll also go all the way to Baguio, then on our way back, my father would left me at Pangasinan (on my aunt and grandmother on my mothers side); then on the 23rd or something, my mom would fetch me there. hah! can you believe that?!? By myself for like a MONTH!!! This is where I get to prove them wrong, that I can already be ALONE!!! ugh! But what else can I do about it, I'm already enrolled at a university here, so probably I'll no longer get to transfer schools.


The NEXT road would be If I stay here.
1.) I get to attend an ACTUAL DEBUT, the traditional one, the COTILLION. ugh! its supposed to be the 1st debut I could ever attend to!

2.) I'll be able to attend on one of my closest friends debut. And maybe another sleepover

3.) I get to know my grades... huhuhuhu! hope I didn't failed

4.) I could have summer class in order for me not to be an irregular next sem.

5.) I could spend a lot of time going out with my friends.


Ugh! what shall I choose?? I really wanted to attend the party, but I also wanted to have a vacation. oh! and btw, I'm having this headache and a light fever, might be the effect of my sinus. Is this a sign?!? but anyways, I'll get the invitation today at around 10:30, in case I'd think of a nice plan that I would get to have two... hahaha! best of both worlds!


Another thing, I had this weird DREAM, probably what they call a "deijavu." Its like I've dreamed on whats gonna happen the rest of the day, which is definitely COULD happen if it weren't for that dream. Like, I was given a second chance to correct everything.

Well, I guess... SEE U NEXT MONTH!!! My BURTHDEI!!!!

The Notebook!!!

Happy Endings???? Maybe,,,,,

I've heard much about "the notebook" and since I considered it as an "oldies" I didn't have that much interest about it. I don't like oldies that much, although there are some exceptions, depends on the story. haha...

During the first scenes, I was captivated by the scenery. A scene from "a lake house" as the sun sets over the horizon, In short nice ang view. I wanted to paint the scenery, lol... seriously I'm not just imitating the heroine in the movie, I like paintings!!! though, If I paint it... Poor Image, ruined by my underdeveloped skills, tsk3. haha....

At the middle of the movie, I got the overview of the whole story already. C'mon, we couldn't deny the fact that the ending was very predictable. I did sense that the old man was narrating HIS/ THEIR story to the old woman, so perhaps a Happy ending indeed! but then again, the story still continued, so that leaves the ending with the hero / heroine dying. lol... The story was very good indeed but very predictable. Furthermore, I've seen movies that have almost exactly the same story, or yet the same plot. However, even though the ending was very predictable, the director has his own way of directing the film. I can't described the feeling while watching the film, there's essence in every action, in every scenes there's thrill, especially near the ending. Basta! Lahi ra jud! I'd say that this film was even better compared to twilight. However, I can't compare the two books since I haven't read "the notebook."

The notebook, on my opinion, shows more on the different characteristics of LOVE, whatever you want to call it.... basta more on LOVE:

1.) Fate - No matter how far your distances may be, even if you two would take different directions, but if you two were meant for each other (MFEO) you'll still end up together. Fate will have its way!!

2.) True Love Waits - Even if there was no sign from each other, even if they've already moved on, but still they both hold on to that small hope that someday their paths would cross again. lol... i'm too far away from the point nah.... See, the guy waited for the girl even though each day he is losing his hope, and he is willing to wait even if it takes FOREVER. While the girl waited also for the guy, by being a volunteered nurse, hoping to cross path with the guy.

3.) Promises - The story proves the quotation : "Promises are meant to be broken" WRONG!! The guy kept all his promises!!

4.) 1st love never dies - really?? lol.... It never dies, It only FADES!!!! But sources said : Whenever you see that person again, the feelings would come back like bullets that were hitting you hard.

5.) Love can make miracles Happen - wala lng.... quotation sa film! hahahaha

6.) You don't have to be OLD (literally) to understand what LOVE is.

7.) If you love the Person, you will Love him/her FOREVER and EVER. Especially during Tough

Times, and will never leave his/her side.

8.) If you love the person you will accept him/her for who he/she is.

9.) Love sometimes happen during the most unexpected time.

10.) ???? uh??? many to mention.... lol... actually, i'm out of words.