Forlorn Day

Wah nai mas loser pa naku!!!

I know over ra man pud ni na drama,... pero di pa japun ko katuo na hapit muabot sa extent na gusto ko muhilak!!! Imagine, naa ko sa jeep then muhilak ra ko kalit..... Even I myself would say na OA najud....

Self pity  maybe..... for the longest time in my life,, nakafeel napud ko ug self pity. How did it happen??

Last night wala ko ka-uban ila ana, gelai, and janna sa SM coz wala ko kapananghid and unfortunately I was left alone.... If only gelai called 5min earlier then nakapananghid unta ko... siiiggghhh.... so I said "ugma nalang" thinking they're free tomorrow..... I promised meow na ubanan xa mag-lunch.... and sssiiiiggghhh!!! I did not anticipate that TODAY is DATING DAY!!!! wah ko na.orient... sabagay,,, why naman ako maoorient dibuh?!? dibuh nga,,, ALONE!!!! ang drama ko for the past 19 yrs... and since I have to make it up to her, I agreed to go thinking na ahh... pagmag.start na dayun xa ug work, I can find other people.... kei accustomed naku na during SOLITARY times naa jud nai makakita naku ALWAYS and so di jud ko mawad.an ug kauban.... I thought this day is no different from any other days na alone ko... but I was WRONG!!! very wrong!!! I did not foresee that times like this would come!!!

Look! so nagtxt ko for possible companions pagka-1pm.... Christina agreed na ubanan ko, even if she's on a date today... with matching "TXT lang"... so I thought ok nah... Meow agreed to meet me at school,... as usual ang forever late na LONER is LATE,, so I thought na naa nai kauban si meow nag.lunch kei ang sabot namu is 12,, I tried my best to make it at 12 pero the earliest jud na maka-abot ko didto is 12:20,,, syempre loser na naman not knowing where MEOW is... buti na lang she said naa pa xa sa bank... so ayan... wait na naman mi... pag.lingkod pa lang naku I saw earl nah -- chitchatted a bit but then he had to go --- alone na naman,... after 1min, I saw cherry (classmate) waiting for flora (classmate) so nag-talk2 napud mi,, till flora came and just as when they're about to go,,, finally niabot na si Meow!!! hooorrraaayyy for today!!

LUNCH....LUNCH....LUNCH.... xempre lunch doesn't last for several hours naman oh.... we only have an hour, maybe less.... so pag-buhbye na ni meow,,, Idk na asa ko puniton.... I texted Christina and she said naa pa xai g.lakaw.... and soooo I walked and walked without knowing where to go,.... my feet brought me to this cake shop na I've been dying to visit so ayun... napa.order nalang ako....

wah nai mas.LOSER pah sa someone who would ORDER herself a BIRTHDAY cake for HER OWN birthday tapos magpa.DEDICATE sa iyang SELF all because she knew wai lain muhatag sa iya and mag.surprise sa iya ug ing.ana but HERSELF!!!! talk about self love!!! xeneng!! FOREVER ALONE T_T Ms. Dex (the owner/baker) was there.... and when asked: "for gift ni xa ma'am" what would I say?? kind of coz it's my gift for myself!! xeneng!!! My BDAY tapos akoi mag.surprise sa other people na nagpabuhat ko ug HAPPY BDAY MYSELF cake for them.... so I said "no"... then the question: any message?? and I said "Happy 20th Bday" a looonngg pause,, she had to break the silence by asking:"name ma'am" and I was left with no choice but to say "rhean. ME" forcing a smile... obvious keu,, she smiled awkwardly just to return my bleak smile.... it pricked hah!! If I know, her mind goes like "LUOYA THIS GIRL UI!!!!" and then the moment I left the cafe they would talk about me and how I ordered a cake as a present for myself!!! urrgghh!!! She then managed to add "ahh.. bday diay nimu rhean. advance :)" the sweetest smile,,, those are the ones you have to watch out for!!

afterwards, the best thing I could do is console MYSELF.... afterall, I have ME, MYSELF, and I naman dibuh.... Sadly, wala pa japun ko kita ug kauban... buti nalang nakita ko si shining jeep which would take me to my most familiar place, HOME.... kaya ayun.... home sweet home.... Cry... cry... hahahaha... joke!! Sayang lang tears ko!!!

SHORT ENCOUNTERS this day::: JEEP moments....

Going downtown:: I saw 3 kids (all boys)... ang isa, ang pinaka-paras,, u know naman how pre-teen boys are,,, has a Xavier ID holder,, so my guess is they're either in 1st yr high school, grade 5 or 6..... The one who asked me "Ate, muagi ni SM?" reminded me of someone.... aaahhh.... someone I decided to forget nah!!! he's a bit chubby,, cute I'd say.... he's likely the teasing-target.... siya man jud ang ga.ulit-uliton  sa duha..... with conversation pa na "si *forgot the name* kay gwapa"... then he agreed "uu. pero stick lang"... "lagi. naai pagka.stick" commented the other one,,,, "si ara (not sure) kay chubby lang"... he replied "cute man si ara" and the other one said "eeeeeiii... crush nimu si ara bah" he was speechless "ngee! nganu?" "eeehh... alangan, nganu hilom kaayo ka pag.naa xa" he replied in defense "hilom ba diay ko? dili ui" "hilom keu ka ui"..... hahahahaha

ganyan ba talaga conversations ng mga guys at that age..... hahahahaha...... plus the kabit2 thing para dili maka-plete..... xempre nice kid si ka-atbang,, the two sat near the driver..... hahaha... wah sila kakabit coz gibadlong.... and pagnaog nila... the paras kid asked the nice kid "nagplete ka"... kala ko dili magplete si nice kid kei ninaog ra xa kalit... pero niadto xa sa driver to personally pay the fare!!! sssooooo nice!!!! and the paras kid said "Banga keu ka!!! sus!!!" but then he ignored him..... aaaahhh.... supah nice,,,, if only I could turn back time.... hahahaha.... no one really knows what the future holds.... suz!! hahaiiiizzz..... my time is up nah..... hahahaha.... pero I'd stick with what I said "It's the NICE/innocent/good ones you have to watch out for!!!!! They can be BRUTAL and nice at the same time!!!!"


Going Home:: this weird guy, probably my age or older, talked to me and said CREEEEPPPYYY stuffs!!! She thought my mom's a teacher and I said "nope" then he described my mom and I said "oo" and he said... oh... I thought she's a teacher... and stuffs like, cesarean ka? rehas tah!... only child ka dibuh? rehas tah! dawbeh paytz keu? and it got creeeppiiieeerrr and creeepppiiieeerrr...... huhuhuhuhu..... just my luck!!!!




FOREVER ALONE!!!! T_T

PS: the cupcake, more specifically the VELVET cupcake, tastes sooooo DELISH!!!!! to order more?? or not to order??